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Yesterday was ballet. I had to take the 5:30 class. I almost chickened out. But i decided to stay and it was actually calming except for 'FROM THE CORNER!' .. i think i could definatly live without that. I just feel so out of place with it.. and the people. uhm, who talks to me during class or after? Ppl. barely ever. I know i probably don't help and i probably don't instigate conversations either but it just seems to have been this way from the beggining. I really hurt my back during it thou. I had to take medication last night. =/ hopefully it'll get worked out. I'd rather lie about my back and keep dancing, then not allowed to. dfkjakjrt. kfdslj. Last night sucked. end of story. i guess i am a bitch really. i used to think that it used to be you that made me act that way, but i've come to the realization that i am my own person and choose to act however i want to. I'd really like to see you. it's always easier to work through it in person. everything hurts right now. i slept so late this morning every phone call coming through the lines. ..mhm.