everything gets so confusing so fast
i dont even know where to start, last night was one of the scariest experiences ive had so far ever, things shouldnt have to be that way, i feel a huge guilt over the choice i made but had i made a diff one id still feel extreme guilt for not making the choice i did make, that doesnt matter tho its anything but important, i dont even really know what to think or feel about it all, its so scary when something like that happens out of nowhere when you think things are great, then everything changes in a few minutes and tho things already seem to be back to normal i know they rnt, everything just feels a bit different now, this should have never happened, and i dont know what to do, feeling helpless along with everyone else is horrible when you know you cant be helpless, but knowin what to do isnt always easy, we need to be in control of this because now we know what ignorance can cost us, and almost did