im so tired of this
my biggest worry right now is getting a job, not to bad, things could be a lot worse i know, but right now what i want more than anything is to leave and not let anyone know about it, one of these days ill get the balls to leave, by myself or with someone else, im just tired of not being happy, i mean im not depressed or suicidal, but im just not happy anymore either, which means im resorting to things i shouldnt be to make me happy, fake happy is no better then no happy at all, but why the fuck am i not happy, i have an amazing family, great friends, no goddamn boy to worry about, things should be great,...i think ill get drunk tonight