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i hate when movies put me in a bad mood. i am watching casulties of war and even though it is a great movie. it is putting me in this shit mood. j called me today on his break. i let him do what he wants because i dont want to over do it. i dont want to push him away. so its better that i right in this than get myself worked up to him. i want to see him tomorrow. but i doubt he will call me tonight. he said he may or may not call me tonight. my stomach hurts. and i want to sleep next to him. i hate my emotions. i want to just get new ones.