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I hate dark and rainy days, they make me depressed so for the past two days I have been depressed, I dont know why! I think one problem is that I dont like being alone, Yesterday sucked untill steph got here and then I didnt feel alone anymore! I mean there are always people in the house but they dont pay any attention to me unless the need me or want me to do something for them! I thought I would be nervous ablout thursday but i am not! I cant wait to actully have money! I dont know if Ill have money anyway with all the damn bills I have to start paying next month! I ma ready to start college because thenm I wont haqve to worry about as much because my mom wont make me pay as much! then when I finnaly get a job at a doctors office I wilol have enough money to pay for these things! I wish I had more friends to hang out with, but the person that wont leave me alone and wants to hang out I really dont want to, I mean I havent seen this guy in 4 years and now he wants to be close and I really dont think I even want to hang out with him because all he talks about is what I look like and how he wants to have sex with me! I wasnt answering his calls so he hasnt called in a few days so I guess thats good! I guess I just have to handle the days like these and pretend like its all ok, even though it doesnt feel that way! Well I am tring so hard to be stronge with all that I have been going through and althogh it feels like alot longer its only been two weeks and it is still hard for me! Well I am going to go!