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For some reason I am finding it impossible to sleep right now.
I feel a lot better lately. I really love the year 2009 so far. So much less stress and drama. I don't remember the last time I threw up from stress or compulsively weighed myself.I'm pretty much my old self again :) I seriously spent the past year and change in a disgusting black hole. Going to therapy is alright, but I really don't feel like I need it anymore. I love my short hair, a lot. I'm still nowhere near having a real job yet.. that is a problem. I wish it didn't take so long to get into vet school (which wouldn't have been an issue if I had applied when I was supposed to- my fault for getting wrapped up in boys. Again.) I feel like I'm kind of floating in a grey area. There's nothing that's terribly bad or incredibly good going on in my life right now. I'm just kind of living. It's devastatingly boring. I need to be challenged a lot. School was good for that, and I miss it. Dr. Fish gives me pop quizzes at work. I usually fail them because they are usually trick questions or things that even the most seasoned of the techs don't know :)
I like pet-sitting. I wish that cat would take her meds for me. I hope she doesn't get sick while her owners are on vacation because of this :(
I miss my mom and Lola. I cry sometimes when I'm lonely at night because I wish I could either cuddle with Lola or crawl into my mom's bed to tell her I can't sleep. She would probably get really pissed at me if I actually did that hahaha.
I still can't sleep and this is pissing me off.
I need to buy greens for Chachi in the morning. I finally found one that he will eat for me(it only took like 6 years!). Amanda said he gobbles down blackberries when she bunnysits him, so I'll get some of those too. There really will never be another bunny like Chachi.
Valentine's day is coming. Everyone seems to panic as it approaches. I've never even given it a second thought, except to countdown until I get some Godiva from my mom. She really is the most amazing lady in my world. I suppose it's because of that yearly treat from her that I don't freak when I'm alone on valentine's day, because I know that I'm loved by and important to her always. ::cue waterworks::
Why won't my brain turn off? My body is begging for rest and my brain is like "mmmmmmmmNOPE". Ahole.
I'm going to babysit my 4 teeny-tiny siblings on Sunday (ages 5, 4, 23 months, 1.5 months). I am sort of nervous about this. I hope that the girls will watch Sleeping Beauty with me and that Anderson will not destroy the whole house/himself. I'm guessing Sarah doesn't do anything but eat/sleep/poop so that shouldn't be too hard.
I am seriously ready to roofie myself right now (anyone got a Forget Me Now?)
I really want to try bacon-chocolate chip cookies. I saw them online and I have a strong feeling that the flavors will work together.
Sleep, Christina, sleeeeeeeeeeep.
I can't wait for summer. I want to go to the beach and wear my flip-flops/sun dresses so badly!!
I think I want a real job the most so that I can finance my desire to eat. I love eating exciting meals at restaurants and trying all sorts of new things. Taco bell every day is awesome, but it does get a little bit boring, and sometimes I feel wrong eating fast food. I just feel so happy after eating healthy/tasty things.
I really want to travel. I want to experience so many things. I don't want to be a long island girl.
Seriously now, I should be sleeping.
I wonder if I'm ever going to get to Chinatown. I'm looking forward to that so much. I hope it's not awkward. I feel terrible about the things that I did before, but I'm realizing that there is no reason to dwell on them. I know I'm a better person than that so I'm not going to freak anymore about trying to prove myself. I'm just going to be my(fabulous)self and have fun.
God, it's so good living for myself. I get into a lot less trouble this way.
And I don't care what Kathy said, I LOVED Coraline!
Okay... I'm going to try the sleep thing again.
I feel a lot better lately. I really love the year 2009 so far. So much less stress and drama. I don't remember the last time I threw up from stress or compulsively weighed myself.I'm pretty much my old self again :) I seriously spent the past year and change in a disgusting black hole. Going to therapy is alright, but I really don't feel like I need it anymore. I love my short hair, a lot. I'm still nowhere near having a real job yet.. that is a problem. I wish it didn't take so long to get into vet school (which wouldn't have been an issue if I had applied when I was supposed to- my fault for getting wrapped up in boys. Again.) I feel like I'm kind of floating in a grey area. There's nothing that's terribly bad or incredibly good going on in my life right now. I'm just kind of living. It's devastatingly boring. I need to be challenged a lot. School was good for that, and I miss it. Dr. Fish gives me pop quizzes at work. I usually fail them because they are usually trick questions or things that even the most seasoned of the techs don't know :)
I like pet-sitting. I wish that cat would take her meds for me. I hope she doesn't get sick while her owners are on vacation because of this :(
I miss my mom and Lola. I cry sometimes when I'm lonely at night because I wish I could either cuddle with Lola or crawl into my mom's bed to tell her I can't sleep. She would probably get really pissed at me if I actually did that hahaha.
I still can't sleep and this is pissing me off.
I need to buy greens for Chachi in the morning. I finally found one that he will eat for me(it only took like 6 years!). Amanda said he gobbles down blackberries when she bunnysits him, so I'll get some of those too. There really will never be another bunny like Chachi.
Valentine's day is coming. Everyone seems to panic as it approaches. I've never even given it a second thought, except to countdown until I get some Godiva from my mom. She really is the most amazing lady in my world. I suppose it's because of that yearly treat from her that I don't freak when I'm alone on valentine's day, because I know that I'm loved by and important to her always. ::cue waterworks::
Why won't my brain turn off? My body is begging for rest and my brain is like "mmmmmmmmNOPE". Ahole.
I'm going to babysit my 4 teeny-tiny siblings on Sunday (ages 5, 4, 23 months, 1.5 months). I am sort of nervous about this. I hope that the girls will watch Sleeping Beauty with me and that Anderson will not destroy the whole house/himself. I'm guessing Sarah doesn't do anything but eat/sleep/poop so that shouldn't be too hard.
I am seriously ready to roofie myself right now (anyone got a Forget Me Now?)
I really want to try bacon-chocolate chip cookies. I saw them online and I have a strong feeling that the flavors will work together.
Sleep, Christina, sleeeeeeeeeeep.
I can't wait for summer. I want to go to the beach and wear my flip-flops/sun dresses so badly!!
I think I want a real job the most so that I can finance my desire to eat. I love eating exciting meals at restaurants and trying all sorts of new things. Taco bell every day is awesome, but it does get a little bit boring, and sometimes I feel wrong eating fast food. I just feel so happy after eating healthy/tasty things.
I really want to travel. I want to experience so many things. I don't want to be a long island girl.
Seriously now, I should be sleeping.
I wonder if I'm ever going to get to Chinatown. I'm looking forward to that so much. I hope it's not awkward. I feel terrible about the things that I did before, but I'm realizing that there is no reason to dwell on them. I know I'm a better person than that so I'm not going to freak anymore about trying to prove myself. I'm just going to be my(fabulous)self and have fun.
God, it's so good living for myself. I get into a lot less trouble this way.
And I don't care what Kathy said, I LOVED Coraline!
Okay... I'm going to try the sleep thing again.