when silence means everything

[punkiix]

wow. i don't know what just happened but i feel so...given up on. i know i treated people fucked and stuff, but i thought i was all over that and i really tried so hard this week to get over how i feel about everything and just be happy and nice. god little things trigger the biggest stuff. this kis peter has a crush on me, and he told me he went to a party last night and got lap danced and kisses from girls, and, allthough i don't like him, i feel like, so forgotten about. fuck it now i'm crying and i swear all i want to do is explode.

too bad i can't let everything out on this.