what to write?

[punkhellokitty]

i have gotten to where i dunno what to write anymore...i mean so much has happened but does that mean i want to write about it?..no...but anyways.....May 6th was the most dreadful night in a while.....it sucked really....i mean what more can i say?...Nick and I are no more....as much as that hurt me to do...maybe it was for the best?.....i didnt ever wanna hurt him, i love him but as people say i am juss not in love with him...the truth is i never fell outta love with someone else....but i guess time will only tell....anywayz....i cried myself to sleep on thurs....i couldnt help but not to....and the next day at break...then when i got home and when we went to eat at A & M grill....then also after i got off the phone with my boss.....she called at like 6:30 telling me yea you are posed to work tonight and when i told her i wasnt anywhere near there...she got mad and hung up....but i am leaving there soon anyways...so what if she fires me?...oh well!!!....well i had fun last night and MX90 or well i mean MELROSE is getting better and better.....they r starting to not suck!!...lol...so that was fun....we all laughed at dave....cuz well we was tripping....lmao...on acid....he was G O N E.....too funny.....and maghan(took her home)......even Crystal came...and you kno....believe this or not we are kool now....i dunno if thats good or bad....but we are.....hmmm...stefanie came late but she was there...and keg....then...er....Valerie and Mike<----drunk as fuck.....then er....who else....ricky came but i never saw him until the end.....and i took robert so i had all my friends there....well most of them...and it was fun...they made me laugh...and omg it felt so good to laugh and have fun...cuz crying gets old....fast...i want to be happy...not sad all the time...a friend and i talked a lot about stuff.....that we had kept inside and stuff....and that was very kool as well.....i took every1 home then went home myself...and now im bored eventho i have a project i hafta do b4 monday:-/....help!!!...

a kool quote from parenting class...

"Love is like quicksand~the deeper you fall in, the harder it is to get out"

i do believe this.....it is so true it scares me....but as a friend told me once...if it is love they will come around...and they r the last piece of the puzzle...