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ok so right now i'm both really tired but also can't seem to fall back asleep. and i'm wanting to type right now so i thought i'd write. i've been going through a really hard time right now, it seems everyone in my life, expect my mom, has kinda just kicked me to the curb. i don't really have anyone to talk to about anything, and i don't have a car so i can't drive to the movies. i'm also really scared right now i not doing much, mostly because i haven't felt good. but the thing that scares my is i'm living in a small town and i don't want to be stuck here for the rest of my life. i want to open my production compeny, start a fashion line, publish books, make movies, t.v. shows, have a record compeny, and right now i'm scared that none of that is going to happen. its been my dream for years now and i want it so bad that it aches to think that i might not be able to do it. the one thing thats holding me back is the fact that i don't have any money. thats the only set back. if i had enough money to do all the things that i want to do, then i would be on a trian to los angels right now. i keep telling myself not to give up and i don't plan to just give up this dream, i guess my fears are getting the best of me couse that is what fear gets paid for, to make sure your so scared of something you want that you end up not going after it. sorry fear your not going to win this one.
talk later, punkgirl2152
talk later, punkgirl2152