My conversation with Jon:
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
I e-mailed you...just now. Check it.
Fallen Angel says:
i just did and my parents said no
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
Oh, alright. Jon, listen to me alright...
Fallen Angel says:
waht
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
I love you. I would do anything for you and I miss you so much! Alright. Right now I need you to trust me. I wasn't telling you to die. I don't want you to die until your old, very old. You're not old enough yet. You can't leave me. I love you...LOVE is strong, and I feel strong for you. I LOVE YOU JON VANDYKEN!
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
Alright? Trust me.
Fallen Angel says:
well 17 years of hell is long enfough for me
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
No! Have the last 2 months been hell...at some times they may have, but Jon, I love you! I don't want you to do this!
Fallen Angel says:
so ........ ur point
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
You don't care how I feel? Well, that's alright. I care how you feel...I care so much I cried again. This time my parents didn't know... Idid it for us. I didn't show it in front of my parents because I want them to think things are fine with us...that you're a good person...and you are! And I love you so much for it. I just hate it when you do this! So much! I want you to be happy.
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
It's my fauly you're upset anyway...I'm sorry. I did take that too seriously, but it makes me upset when you say things like that...
Fallen Angel says:
i am not a good person
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
You are to me Jon. You know what...everything I just told you was the truth, nothing but the truth. Why can't you just trust me! You need to accept the truth...I LOVE YOU!
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
YOU! YOU are JON! I love YOU! Jon=You! YOU I LOVE! ONLY YOU DO I LOVE! I LOVE YOU!
Fallen Angel says:
because when ever i trust someone i get hurt in someway or another and it don't help with ur and mine parents being assholes
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
I need you in my life! If you weren't in my life, I would have no sense of what LOVE is like. Ok, I need you to be here. I need you to stay alive.
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
I won't hurt you! I promise. I will never hurt you Jon! I will NEVER EVER HURT YOU! I PROMISE!
Fallen Angel says:
you allready have
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
How did I hurt you! All I have done is been there for you! Jon!...
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
And if you think I hurt you, I can sure tell you the it wasn't intentional! All I have ever wanted is for you to be happy. Jon, I need you!
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
And when I told my computer to kill itself, I was trying to see you. I was trying to open your picture and print it...
Fallen Angel says:
how by being so emontial like ur exactly like my mom only she is worse becasue of no anit deprssants and she won't admit it becasue she is so perfict and i am just the fuck up that they got stuck with and like i know its not your fault but like i cant even mencion like anything to you with out you like spasing out but yea ............................... i dont know and you know what eveyone in
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
I only cry when you say you're going to kill yourself...I'm sorry I'm so emotional. I can't change that tho...it's the way I am.
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
I do try to control myself...I just can't. I only cry because I care.
Fallen Angel says:
blenheim are two faced lieing little cunts that i cant trust and i have grown up around all of them all my life and like i cant trust them and every one in chatham that i know have fucked me over atlesat once or twice but not only that but it seams like your obsessed with me like i am not that spcial like fuck i am a teenage fuck up that is going to jail in a couple months ................. fuck
Fallen Angel says:
like i don't complet your life no matter what you say i only complcate it and even though u may love me i have my doughts that it is
Fallen Angel says:
love
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
Well, I have never lied to you. You can think what you want. It's like you don't want to be with me. Like, you're hinting me something. You make me so happy though. I don't know why.
Fallen Angel says:
like that if i didn't want u an want to go out with u i would dump your ass and just leave u in the dust and not look back
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
I know...and Jon. I understand that it's hard for you to understand what is between us, and I understand. But, please don't think I am obsessed with you. If I was obsessed with you I would have your name as my nickname or something, and my info would only be about you and I would constantly go to your house and I would get pissed off if you were on the internet and I would kill myself when you got
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
upset. I'm not obsessed with you, I just really like you.
Fallen Angel says:
well then y cant u just let me die and get on with your life
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
No. I can't. Jon, I just told you I really liked you. I'm not obsessed with Sheonna, but I would be devistated if she died...and you, ohhh you Jon, you KNOW I would be upset. Remember, you know me like a book.
Fallen Angel says:
yet you bitch almost everyday about how she did this or that or the other thing, your actions don't match your words hunny
I e-mailed you...just now. Check it.
Fallen Angel says:
i just did and my parents said no
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
Oh, alright. Jon, listen to me alright...
Fallen Angel says:
waht
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
I love you. I would do anything for you and I miss you so much! Alright. Right now I need you to trust me. I wasn't telling you to die. I don't want you to die until your old, very old. You're not old enough yet. You can't leave me. I love you...LOVE is strong, and I feel strong for you. I LOVE YOU JON VANDYKEN!
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
Alright? Trust me.
Fallen Angel says:
well 17 years of hell is long enfough for me
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
No! Have the last 2 months been hell...at some times they may have, but Jon, I love you! I don't want you to do this!
Fallen Angel says:
so ........ ur point
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
You don't care how I feel? Well, that's alright. I care how you feel...I care so much I cried again. This time my parents didn't know... Idid it for us. I didn't show it in front of my parents because I want them to think things are fine with us...that you're a good person...and you are! And I love you so much for it. I just hate it when you do this! So much! I want you to be happy.
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
It's my fauly you're upset anyway...I'm sorry. I did take that too seriously, but it makes me upset when you say things like that...
Fallen Angel says:
i am not a good person
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
You are to me Jon. You know what...everything I just told you was the truth, nothing but the truth. Why can't you just trust me! You need to accept the truth...I LOVE YOU!
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
YOU! YOU are JON! I love YOU! Jon=You! YOU I LOVE! ONLY YOU DO I LOVE! I LOVE YOU!
Fallen Angel says:
because when ever i trust someone i get hurt in someway or another and it don't help with ur and mine parents being assholes
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
I need you in my life! If you weren't in my life, I would have no sense of what LOVE is like. Ok, I need you to be here. I need you to stay alive.
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
I won't hurt you! I promise. I will never hurt you Jon! I will NEVER EVER HURT YOU! I PROMISE!
Fallen Angel says:
you allready have
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
How did I hurt you! All I have done is been there for you! Jon!...
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
And if you think I hurt you, I can sure tell you the it wasn't intentional! All I have ever wanted is for you to be happy. Jon, I need you!
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
And when I told my computer to kill itself, I was trying to see you. I was trying to open your picture and print it...
Fallen Angel says:
how by being so emontial like ur exactly like my mom only she is worse becasue of no anit deprssants and she won't admit it becasue she is so perfict and i am just the fuck up that they got stuck with and like i know its not your fault but like i cant even mencion like anything to you with out you like spasing out but yea ............................... i dont know and you know what eveyone in
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
I only cry when you say you're going to kill yourself...I'm sorry I'm so emotional. I can't change that tho...it's the way I am.
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
I do try to control myself...I just can't. I only cry because I care.
Fallen Angel says:
blenheim are two faced lieing little cunts that i cant trust and i have grown up around all of them all my life and like i cant trust them and every one in chatham that i know have fucked me over atlesat once or twice but not only that but it seams like your obsessed with me like i am not that spcial like fuck i am a teenage fuck up that is going to jail in a couple months ................. fuck
Fallen Angel says:
like i don't complet your life no matter what you say i only complcate it and even though u may love me i have my doughts that it is
Fallen Angel says:
love
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
Well, I have never lied to you. You can think what you want. It's like you don't want to be with me. Like, you're hinting me something. You make me so happy though. I don't know why.
Fallen Angel says:
like that if i didn't want u an want to go out with u i would dump your ass and just leave u in the dust and not look back
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
I know...and Jon. I understand that it's hard for you to understand what is between us, and I understand. But, please don't think I am obsessed with you. If I was obsessed with you I would have your name as my nickname or something, and my info would only be about you and I would constantly go to your house and I would get pissed off if you were on the internet and I would kill myself when you got
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
upset. I'm not obsessed with you, I just really like you.
Fallen Angel says:
well then y cant u just let me die and get on with your life
:: Screaming Infidelities :: says:
No. I can't. Jon, I just told you I really liked you. I'm not obsessed with Sheonna, but I would be devistated if she died...and you, ohhh you Jon, you KNOW I would be upset. Remember, you know me like a book.
Fallen Angel says:
yet you bitch almost everyday about how she did this or that or the other thing, your actions don't match your words hunny