fastforward
I wish I could fast forward my life. I wish I could know where I was going to end up in 10 years, or even longer-shorter. I just want to know where life intends for me to go.
In a year I will be a senior applying to colleges. Then I will be deciding where I will go and be getting ready to leave. Next I hope to be off to Santa Barbara or somewhere in the UC system I dont really feel to picky about it. After pursuing a literature major I plan to start apply to grad school. I will be working all the time toward my overall goal of a PhD in literature (I'm still of sure of what specifically in literature though). I plan on moving to the east coast for grad school and yet again I probably won't be all that picky about which school I end up at. Cornell, Princeton (yeah right), Dartmouth, Brown, Columbia, NYU, Amherst...if its on the East Coast I'm pretty happy... well reasonably. I'd to get my Phd from some great ivy league like Harvard and such, but you know, I'm realistic. I want to be a college professor and maybe try my hand at writing some news articles (most likely not though) I'll probably concentrate more at writing lieterary analysis and research papers (I love those types of things). Once I finish school however, all of it and am employed I hope to be close to settling down. I wonder what it would be like to be married? I mean and I know Jeff and I have been together for awhile, but we are by no means a married couple. I wonder who I will end up with? Will I still be with Jeff? Will we end up together... I love him so much right now, and if at this very moment I had done all those things I plan to do, than I would want to marry him. Right now I can say taht. who knows how I will feel then. I do know that I want to always be close with Jeff and Sam... I need sam, hes just wonderful. and Jeff, don't get me started on how important he is. I love how smart he is, I hope I can excel the way he does. I hope my life turns out close to how I plan. But I wonder...
In a year I will be a senior applying to colleges. Then I will be deciding where I will go and be getting ready to leave. Next I hope to be off to Santa Barbara or somewhere in the UC system I dont really feel to picky about it. After pursuing a literature major I plan to start apply to grad school. I will be working all the time toward my overall goal of a PhD in literature (I'm still of sure of what specifically in literature though). I plan on moving to the east coast for grad school and yet again I probably won't be all that picky about which school I end up at. Cornell, Princeton (yeah right), Dartmouth, Brown, Columbia, NYU, Amherst...if its on the East Coast I'm pretty happy... well reasonably. I'd to get my Phd from some great ivy league like Harvard and such, but you know, I'm realistic. I want to be a college professor and maybe try my hand at writing some news articles (most likely not though) I'll probably concentrate more at writing lieterary analysis and research papers (I love those types of things). Once I finish school however, all of it and am employed I hope to be close to settling down. I wonder what it would be like to be married? I mean and I know Jeff and I have been together for awhile, but we are by no means a married couple. I wonder who I will end up with? Will I still be with Jeff? Will we end up together... I love him so much right now, and if at this very moment I had done all those things I plan to do, than I would want to marry him. Right now I can say taht. who knows how I will feel then. I do know that I want to always be close with Jeff and Sam... I need sam, hes just wonderful. and Jeff, don't get me started on how important he is. I love how smart he is, I hope I can excel the way he does. I hope my life turns out close to how I plan. But I wonder...