*big sigh*
these lines from this song (billy talent - prisoners of today)...is just totally how im feeling right now
She said " I wanna run, I wanna hide, and leave this place just like it left me"
"The only problem is I need to find the balls to follow through and that's the truth now..."
you know, i know people in this world have a lot worse problems then i do, but you know what everyone has thier levels. and right now its "lets toss a whole bunch of bad stuff at sarah just to see how much she can handle"...yeah im getting a little sick of it.
in the course of a month: my boyfriend broke up with me, one of my really good friends is pregnant, and eugens mom says we cant hang out anymore.also my great aunt helen died, and i found out i have to take out loans of 25000 dollars for school before i can get money from the governement. yeah im pissed.
i really just want a vacation. i really want to go back to california...i had a blast, i loved it there and it was just so beautiful. in my i have the time off, and ive been working extra just to make money to go. one problem, no one to go with and no place to stay. but im determined to find a way to go. if i could just get up and leave, id go right now and just drop everything...i seriously need to start over. everyone elses life is moving on and im stuck. and i dont really see any way out of any of these problems. i just need to get out of here...i need to get my life going again. you know, a month ago, i knew something bad was going to happen because things were just going TOO good.
i wish i could just sleep through it and wake up when things were happy again.
She said " I wanna run, I wanna hide, and leave this place just like it left me"
"The only problem is I need to find the balls to follow through and that's the truth now..."
you know, i know people in this world have a lot worse problems then i do, but you know what everyone has thier levels. and right now its "lets toss a whole bunch of bad stuff at sarah just to see how much she can handle"...yeah im getting a little sick of it.
in the course of a month: my boyfriend broke up with me, one of my really good friends is pregnant, and eugens mom says we cant hang out anymore.also my great aunt helen died, and i found out i have to take out loans of 25000 dollars for school before i can get money from the governement. yeah im pissed.
i really just want a vacation. i really want to go back to california...i had a blast, i loved it there and it was just so beautiful. in my i have the time off, and ive been working extra just to make money to go. one problem, no one to go with and no place to stay. but im determined to find a way to go. if i could just get up and leave, id go right now and just drop everything...i seriously need to start over. everyone elses life is moving on and im stuck. and i dont really see any way out of any of these problems. i just need to get out of here...i need to get my life going again. you know, a month ago, i knew something bad was going to happen because things were just going TOO good.
i wish i could just sleep through it and wake up when things were happy again.