i miss
I miss HIM. The one that I fell for.
I miss my grandpa. I wish that my friends could have met him. I wish that he would have met 3 very important people in my life.
I miss Kerry Ann, Kelly Ann, and Kelsey!
I miss Jackie! But she is moving to cali next week. And i get to see her in a month!
I miss being a kid. I wanna go back to the 4th grade, before I felt the pains in my life that haunt me late at night. The pains that I dare not tell anyone about. For then I will be letting people into my life and see what happened to me. It is just too ugly.
I miss my dad. He is not the father that I knew years ago. I am starting to forget who that man was.
I miss my Brother! I know that he is doing well and I talk to him once a week lately. But its not the same.
I miss Michelle, Fun Bobby, Ian, and Emma. I will see them at the end of the month as well. I just miss them being around the corner from me. It was my oasis, per say.
I miss the relationship with God that I had as a kid. He was everything to me and my life. Now what??
I know that I have learned a lot from everything that I have been through. But sometimes I wish that I didnt learn these things. I hate crying myself to sleep. But this seems to happen way to often lately. There is a lot going on in my life right now and i feel like if I had just fought harder last year, I may just be happy. But I am also happy that my life has changed. I think that I am just at this point in my life right now where I have a crossroads, and there are so may different ways for me to go. I just dont know where to go. There are soooo many things going through my head right now. And my brain is turning to mush. I am going to leave you all with this.
For those of you who pray. when you think of me. say a prayer for me. I could use it! Thank you! I love you all!
I miss my grandpa. I wish that my friends could have met him. I wish that he would have met 3 very important people in my life.
I miss Kerry Ann, Kelly Ann, and Kelsey!
I miss Jackie! But she is moving to cali next week. And i get to see her in a month!
I miss being a kid. I wanna go back to the 4th grade, before I felt the pains in my life that haunt me late at night. The pains that I dare not tell anyone about. For then I will be letting people into my life and see what happened to me. It is just too ugly.
I miss my dad. He is not the father that I knew years ago. I am starting to forget who that man was.
I miss my Brother! I know that he is doing well and I talk to him once a week lately. But its not the same.
I miss Michelle, Fun Bobby, Ian, and Emma. I will see them at the end of the month as well. I just miss them being around the corner from me. It was my oasis, per say.
I miss the relationship with God that I had as a kid. He was everything to me and my life. Now what??
I know that I have learned a lot from everything that I have been through. But sometimes I wish that I didnt learn these things. I hate crying myself to sleep. But this seems to happen way to often lately. There is a lot going on in my life right now and i feel like if I had just fought harder last year, I may just be happy. But I am also happy that my life has changed. I think that I am just at this point in my life right now where I have a crossroads, and there are so may different ways for me to go. I just dont know where to go. There are soooo many things going through my head right now. And my brain is turning to mush. I am going to leave you all with this.
For those of you who pray. when you think of me. say a prayer for me. I could use it! Thank you! I love you all!