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he should be 4 months today.........
I really cant keep this mask on that I am okay! Im not. I know that he wouldnt have been blood related to me. But he is my little brother. I try to forget about it and not talk about him. But I am hurting inside. I should have been able to hold him the last time i saw everyone. I am so pissed! I want to see him and hold him. I cant keep it in anymore. I feel like I am going to cry for a year. now that i have started i cant stop.
I feel like i have keep a lot in and just now its all exploding! I feel like i have to be the strong one to keep everyone else together! i can show that I am hurting. But I am!!!! And I just want someone to let me cry on their shoulder!
I am going to bed now! I cant see anymore!
I really cant keep this mask on that I am okay! Im not. I know that he wouldnt have been blood related to me. But he is my little brother. I try to forget about it and not talk about him. But I am hurting inside. I should have been able to hold him the last time i saw everyone. I am so pissed! I want to see him and hold him. I cant keep it in anymore. I feel like I am going to cry for a year. now that i have started i cant stop.
I feel like i have keep a lot in and just now its all exploding! I feel like i have to be the strong one to keep everyone else together! i can show that I am hurting. But I am!!!! And I just want someone to let me cry on their shoulder!
I am going to bed now! I cant see anymore!