useless crap
have you ever felt like everything you do is for shit? ok, i dont know. im in another one of my moods. travis has upset me really bad today and he isnt even aware of it. i havent even seen him. he has been working nights and i havent seen him since monday. just been talking on the phone and stuff. he wont come to see me and i dont know why. he acts like he is mad but has no reason to be. its just like i feel like i do sooo much for him and sure he says thanks and stuff, but i feel like i dont ever get anything in return. im not talking about store bought things, i mean just little comments like "youre beautiful" when i really look like shit ya know? a daisy picked out of the yard, coming over and doing my dishes while im at work or something, a simple unexpected suprise. thats all i want. i do things like that for him all the time, why dont i get anything back in return? its really starting to tear me up because its making me thing im doing something wrong when i know im not. i dont know whats going on between us but i really dont like it at all. to top it off, im like $2000 in debt. anybody wanna loan me money?