i so lifted this from Jules
Ten Things.
-List 10 things you want to say to people but know you never will.
-Don't say who they are.
-Screen comments.
-Never discuss it again.
1. I haven't talked to you in over a year. And I'm happy about that and yet it kills me all at the same time. You were the one and only boy I've ever loved. You totally broke my heart and seemed as though you didn't care, and even though I swear up and down I don't care anymore and all this and that and I put on a damn good act. I'm still in love with you. I REALLY dont know why and I don't know how you feel, but I've heard that since we broke up you haven't really had another serious relationship, just get with a girl for ass and then once you're tired of her...drop her and get another one..in some cases the same day. I'll probably never know how you feel...as I'll probably never talk to you again.
and that kills me...but it holds me together all at the same time.
2. I hate you, I really do. I mean I know that deep down I should love you still because I'm supposed too, but even that died along time ago. I don't understand how you can treat me and momma like you do and not give a shit at all. You are the reason I hate myself so much, you are the reason I started cutting myself to start with, you are the reason I do alot of thing bad things I do. And even if you knew the truth...you wouldn't care...you would just worry about how it makes you look. asshole
3. I hope we don't kill each other this year. Generally we get along pretty alright, but then you get in your moods and I wanna say something I really do, butI dont. because you scare me some, but i dont know why. and i think im the better friend. most of the time i drive, and i share like everything i have and i always tell you where im going or what im doing, many times inviting you along, and if nothing else i leave a note. i dont know. i just hope this works out.
4. Well...we have been through alot together. We have had our falling outs and such but now we are closer than ever I think. It still kills me though that we didnt talk for like a year and a half. and to think..all because Sissy started a bunch of shit and most of it wasn't even true. i never slept with him, and i never had any intenetions of doing it either. but you didn't wanna believe me. and even now...when we make plans...and you always bail out...or come up with some excuse, like last weekend. when i came down..borrowed money for gas and everything and then we went to freaking IHOP. i could go to IHOP here. it bothers me when you do that shit. like it bothers me alot and it seems like you dont even care.
5. I know I make things hard sometimes, and I know I act like a bitch alot. but i love you...even though i don't ever say it, and i want you to be proud of me and no matter what i'll always been your baby girl.
6. OH EM EFF GEE!!! I love you! you are so amazing and how cool is it we have the same b-day. it is a sad day you live wayyyyyyyy over there tho. you rawk it hard..and when we go to Mexico it will be the best trip/time..EVER.
7. I still can't believe you did things like you did. I mean I was always there for you. Took you home from school everyday, hung out with you until your mom got offa work so you wouldn' tbe home alone, took you places and did everything like that. Then you just ditched me for a boy..and you're new best friend. Then you wanted to justify it by saying that you'renew best friend got ditched by someone else. like that would make it okay for you to do me like you did. then the thing with the boy didnt even last that long. and you would say and do things thinking i wouldn't find out..but they always got back to me..like the boy from defensive driving. and then once you hung tighter with you're new best friend...you changed. alot and you were no longer the same girl i was best friends with. and it killed me. things are kinda better now I suppose. but i know things will never be the same. and it still hurts me that you did what you did when i was such a loyal friend.
8. What can I say...I've only know you like a week and a half or something, but I think I'm falling for you. The first time I saw you with that lions camp shirt on...i said..i need to befreind that man. and that's what i'm trying to do. you are so sweet and nice. and not to mention pretty hot, i mean i dont know many people that would come down at 11:30 at night to help someone with their calculus quiz, i hope you liked my lame note...and im kinda sad you didnt' call. but i guess that's how things go. i haven't seen you since like thursday and that kinda makes me a sad panda. i hope i have a chance and im not just gonna make an ass outta myself.
9.it's funny. how we were your only friends. then the fakies came in and you really think they are you're friends. when everyone knows they continue to talk shit when you aren't together. that's how they are. but you dont see that and you dont care. you think you are so great bc you go to *U. and when you still try to talk to us...and wanna be a bitch and talk about your fake friends. so bad we wanna say "shut up bitch...we were your friends when you didn't have any" and you are about thisclose to fucking that up too.
10.i hate how..you wanna be my best friend for a while, and then not talk to me for like a month or something and then when you finally decide to pull your head outta your ass you wanna get mad that im mad. you have to be the most immature 20 year old i ever met. i dont see why i keep trying but i do. *sigh*
-List 10 things you want to say to people but know you never will.
-Don't say who they are.
-Screen comments.
-Never discuss it again.
1. I haven't talked to you in over a year. And I'm happy about that and yet it kills me all at the same time. You were the one and only boy I've ever loved. You totally broke my heart and seemed as though you didn't care, and even though I swear up and down I don't care anymore and all this and that and I put on a damn good act. I'm still in love with you. I REALLY dont know why and I don't know how you feel, but I've heard that since we broke up you haven't really had another serious relationship, just get with a girl for ass and then once you're tired of her...drop her and get another one..in some cases the same day. I'll probably never know how you feel...as I'll probably never talk to you again.
and that kills me...but it holds me together all at the same time.
2. I hate you, I really do. I mean I know that deep down I should love you still because I'm supposed too, but even that died along time ago. I don't understand how you can treat me and momma like you do and not give a shit at all. You are the reason I hate myself so much, you are the reason I started cutting myself to start with, you are the reason I do alot of thing bad things I do. And even if you knew the truth...you wouldn't care...you would just worry about how it makes you look. asshole
3. I hope we don't kill each other this year. Generally we get along pretty alright, but then you get in your moods and I wanna say something I really do, butI dont. because you scare me some, but i dont know why. and i think im the better friend. most of the time i drive, and i share like everything i have and i always tell you where im going or what im doing, many times inviting you along, and if nothing else i leave a note. i dont know. i just hope this works out.
4. Well...we have been through alot together. We have had our falling outs and such but now we are closer than ever I think. It still kills me though that we didnt talk for like a year and a half. and to think..all because Sissy started a bunch of shit and most of it wasn't even true. i never slept with him, and i never had any intenetions of doing it either. but you didn't wanna believe me. and even now...when we make plans...and you always bail out...or come up with some excuse, like last weekend. when i came down..borrowed money for gas and everything and then we went to freaking IHOP. i could go to IHOP here. it bothers me when you do that shit. like it bothers me alot and it seems like you dont even care.
5. I know I make things hard sometimes, and I know I act like a bitch alot. but i love you...even though i don't ever say it, and i want you to be proud of me and no matter what i'll always been your baby girl.
6. OH EM EFF GEE!!! I love you! you are so amazing and how cool is it we have the same b-day. it is a sad day you live wayyyyyyyy over there tho. you rawk it hard..and when we go to Mexico it will be the best trip/time..EVER.
7. I still can't believe you did things like you did. I mean I was always there for you. Took you home from school everyday, hung out with you until your mom got offa work so you wouldn' tbe home alone, took you places and did everything like that. Then you just ditched me for a boy..and you're new best friend. Then you wanted to justify it by saying that you'renew best friend got ditched by someone else. like that would make it okay for you to do me like you did. then the thing with the boy didnt even last that long. and you would say and do things thinking i wouldn't find out..but they always got back to me..like the boy from defensive driving. and then once you hung tighter with you're new best friend...you changed. alot and you were no longer the same girl i was best friends with. and it killed me. things are kinda better now I suppose. but i know things will never be the same. and it still hurts me that you did what you did when i was such a loyal friend.
8. What can I say...I've only know you like a week and a half or something, but I think I'm falling for you. The first time I saw you with that lions camp shirt on...i said..i need to befreind that man. and that's what i'm trying to do. you are so sweet and nice. and not to mention pretty hot, i mean i dont know many people that would come down at 11:30 at night to help someone with their calculus quiz, i hope you liked my lame note...and im kinda sad you didnt' call. but i guess that's how things go. i haven't seen you since like thursday and that kinda makes me a sad panda. i hope i have a chance and im not just gonna make an ass outta myself.
9.it's funny. how we were your only friends. then the fakies came in and you really think they are you're friends. when everyone knows they continue to talk shit when you aren't together. that's how they are. but you dont see that and you dont care. you think you are so great bc you go to *U. and when you still try to talk to us...and wanna be a bitch and talk about your fake friends. so bad we wanna say "shut up bitch...we were your friends when you didn't have any" and you are about thisclose to fucking that up too.
10.i hate how..you wanna be my best friend for a while, and then not talk to me for like a month or something and then when you finally decide to pull your head outta your ass you wanna get mad that im mad. you have to be the most immature 20 year old i ever met. i dont see why i keep trying but i do. *sigh*