I'm the son of rage and love, the Jesus Of Suburbia...
ok. so fuck school. it sux. i don't care what happens who i see, it fuckin sux. i h8 the environment, and i hate most of the ppl there. they're too like... fake. i have like absolutely no ambition, i have no will to do the work, the teacher's are so fucking boring i fall asleep in class no matter what time of the day it is. i'm really into my fucking music. i wake up, play music to get ready for the place i most despise until that day when i just disappear, go to school listenin to music, get to school with my headphones blasting, go to first period and pop my cd in the computer to listen to music, conceal my headphones second period to listen to music, third period blows because i can't bring my cd player to pe, fourth period its too hard cuz she's always walkin around so i tend to write songs in that class, 5th period i sit in the back in the corner and draw, and write, and sleep, o, and guess what... listen to music. sixth period is history, which is such a bullshit class i don't believe anything i hear or read in those fuckin books, its put too like... good for the world. so fuck that i listen to music. then i come home and guess what? blast my fuckin music until i go to bed, and then i fall asleep to more music, and repeat the cycle for days and days on end until i go crazy and just blast my head open. (it feels like that should come any day now)
i'm tired of fake ppl, i'm tired of real ppl, i'm tired of just everything and everyone. i'm tired of the same fucking fake convos with the same fuckin ppl over and over. they're so closed minded they can't talk about anything, they're the perfect fucking mold for the world. well i'm not gonna allow myself to fit their mold.
I almost got my ass jumped by a group of mexicans today because i walked through their "circle". o i'm sry, i didn't know this is where you "kick it", it just seemed like the fastest fucking route to get away from fucks like you. and knowing me in my mind i would've tried to take all of them on and probably would've ended up with the shit beat out of me. so that was a highlight of today. fuck that.
on the lighter side of my fucked up self, i got the new green day cd, which i absolutely love. AND... i got the new Used cd!! <3!!! i downloaded it cuz it doesn't come out until next week, but o w8, i couldn't find 1 song... so i guess that means i have to buy the cd =).
i don't think my mind would function if i didn't have music. no matter how loud it is, no matter how fast or obnoxious it is... it just seems to calm me and put me into my state of mind. go figure. maybe if i make it out of high school i'll think about a music major for college if i choose to be one of those ppl.
I think i'm gettin a lot of ppl to dislike me because i'm always straight out with who i am. i don't hide anything, i don't sugar coat anything, i give it to em straight. if i don't like em, i basically show i don't like them. if i think something that they disprove, well they shouldn't have asked if they didn't want an honest answer. its so hard to find those "real" ppl. i guess sometimes you gotta see through the fake to the real. i need to work on that more, there's so many fakes in high school, not to mention the whole fucked up world.
Not to mention the unjustified killing of men for oil, money, power and greed. sure, our deaths are much less than those of the iraqi's, but look how long we've been there, how greedy can you be to kill that many ppl just for a few extra bux? come on now, be logical. there's what? 1000 men dead from the us that are just identified, but what they don't say is that there are over 7000 casualties. yea, ppl with one arm, one leg, nothing but nubs, its fuckin ridiculous. o yea... "they have weapons of mass destruction" bull fucking shit. our oh so great government are the fuckers using depleted uranium just to get and extra explosion and kill a few extra lives. wtf is that shit. all the soldiers over sea must have some defect due to that shit. all you need is a lil amount put in your body and it'll fuck up all your shit.
ugh, thats y i believe in no government, no rules. i don't care if its not logical to you fucks, but it makes sense to me. but i'm not right in the first place so what does that tell you.
i need time to get away from all this shit, and all you fucks. moaner knows exactly how i feel, we think alike... for the most part.
and from what i think now, i'll be lucky if i hit 40. so much shit is gonna change within the next few weeks its gonna be insane. i'm gonna wanna go on a killing spree more than i already do right now, i can tell.
omg i'm so lost in what to do about anything... y does everything have to be so fucking hard? some ppl need to be straight out and not fake and not fucking dancing around the point. i fuckin hate that. and ppl that got a problem with me... which i know a lot of you do... you need to just fucking step up and say it to my fucking face. i swear... if anything else could piss me off even more, its that
if you're reading this part right now you either 1) must've been very fucking bored or 2) you actually care about what i have to say or 3) you have no idea who the fuck i am and you want to find out
lets end this fucked up post by some lyrics from my idols... (the used you fucks)
In your eyes..
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I’m melting
In your eyes..
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me, lay with me now.
i'm tired of fake ppl, i'm tired of real ppl, i'm tired of just everything and everyone. i'm tired of the same fucking fake convos with the same fuckin ppl over and over. they're so closed minded they can't talk about anything, they're the perfect fucking mold for the world. well i'm not gonna allow myself to fit their mold.
I almost got my ass jumped by a group of mexicans today because i walked through their "circle". o i'm sry, i didn't know this is where you "kick it", it just seemed like the fastest fucking route to get away from fucks like you. and knowing me in my mind i would've tried to take all of them on and probably would've ended up with the shit beat out of me. so that was a highlight of today. fuck that.
on the lighter side of my fucked up self, i got the new green day cd, which i absolutely love. AND... i got the new Used cd!! <3!!! i downloaded it cuz it doesn't come out until next week, but o w8, i couldn't find 1 song... so i guess that means i have to buy the cd =).
i don't think my mind would function if i didn't have music. no matter how loud it is, no matter how fast or obnoxious it is... it just seems to calm me and put me into my state of mind. go figure. maybe if i make it out of high school i'll think about a music major for college if i choose to be one of those ppl.
I think i'm gettin a lot of ppl to dislike me because i'm always straight out with who i am. i don't hide anything, i don't sugar coat anything, i give it to em straight. if i don't like em, i basically show i don't like them. if i think something that they disprove, well they shouldn't have asked if they didn't want an honest answer. its so hard to find those "real" ppl. i guess sometimes you gotta see through the fake to the real. i need to work on that more, there's so many fakes in high school, not to mention the whole fucked up world.
Not to mention the unjustified killing of men for oil, money, power and greed. sure, our deaths are much less than those of the iraqi's, but look how long we've been there, how greedy can you be to kill that many ppl just for a few extra bux? come on now, be logical. there's what? 1000 men dead from the us that are just identified, but what they don't say is that there are over 7000 casualties. yea, ppl with one arm, one leg, nothing but nubs, its fuckin ridiculous. o yea... "they have weapons of mass destruction" bull fucking shit. our oh so great government are the fuckers using depleted uranium just to get and extra explosion and kill a few extra lives. wtf is that shit. all the soldiers over sea must have some defect due to that shit. all you need is a lil amount put in your body and it'll fuck up all your shit.
ugh, thats y i believe in no government, no rules. i don't care if its not logical to you fucks, but it makes sense to me. but i'm not right in the first place so what does that tell you.
i need time to get away from all this shit, and all you fucks. moaner knows exactly how i feel, we think alike... for the most part.
and from what i think now, i'll be lucky if i hit 40. so much shit is gonna change within the next few weeks its gonna be insane. i'm gonna wanna go on a killing spree more than i already do right now, i can tell.
omg i'm so lost in what to do about anything... y does everything have to be so fucking hard? some ppl need to be straight out and not fake and not fucking dancing around the point. i fuckin hate that. and ppl that got a problem with me... which i know a lot of you do... you need to just fucking step up and say it to my fucking face. i swear... if anything else could piss me off even more, its that
if you're reading this part right now you either 1) must've been very fucking bored or 2) you actually care about what i have to say or 3) you have no idea who the fuck i am and you want to find out
lets end this fucked up post by some lyrics from my idols... (the used you fucks)
In your eyes..
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I’m melting
In your eyes..
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me, lay with me now.