Jun 26, 2005 11:01
I was looking through my computer and organizing my files today when I came across a picture I thought I had deleted. Then I started to think about the past and I felt depressed. But I think I finally understand. This pain I have been having in my chest, and the reason why I cant sleep at night may all be because I am heart broken, and NOT lonely. When I thought about it, I have been alone my whole life. And sometimes it was because I chose to be or was forced to be alone. I strongly think that I am feeling this way due to my broken heart. I was in denile at first because I didn't think that something like that could hurt me...not from this source. I guess I was wrong. But now that I understand a portion of where this pain is coming from...I now need to find out how to make it stop.
Searching your own soul, can be as confusing as trying to find out the meaning to life.