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i dont know. i'm confused right now. i dont understand how she can be so happy with the person that i met first, and i can be so misserable without him.
it hurts. it really does. she has the friendship with him that i wish i always had. every chance he has, it's with her. it's always with her. whats so different between me and her? he tells me that i'm awesome and that i'm understanding and caring, but he still manages to talk to her more. he still seems to keep that frienship close with her. it really does hurt.. and i cant help but cry sometimes. he's so special to me. and he doesnt see it. he hurts me sometimes.. even when he doesnt know it. when he told me his secret, it crushed me so bad. i know he likes her.. but i cant help it. i cant help caring for him and loving him. and just hearing something like that hurts twice as much. he has a girl now, and i'm happy for him. i really am. it just hurts when he talks about her. like, that's the only thing that he cares about.
it just hurts.. hurts so bad that i cant even tell you in words.
it hurts. it really does. she has the friendship with him that i wish i always had. every chance he has, it's with her. it's always with her. whats so different between me and her? he tells me that i'm awesome and that i'm understanding and caring, but he still manages to talk to her more. he still seems to keep that frienship close with her. it really does hurt.. and i cant help but cry sometimes. he's so special to me. and he doesnt see it. he hurts me sometimes.. even when he doesnt know it. when he told me his secret, it crushed me so bad. i know he likes her.. but i cant help it. i cant help caring for him and loving him. and just hearing something like that hurts twice as much. he has a girl now, and i'm happy for him. i really am. it just hurts when he talks about her. like, that's the only thing that he cares about.
it just hurts.. hurts so bad that i cant even tell you in words.