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i just want to give up on everything.. nothing matters anymore. no one cares...
i just want to stop trying.. just stop loving for you... just stop wanting to be happy.
i dont care what people think of me anymore.. they can say that i'm suicidal, but i dont give a shit anymore. think of me all that you want, but you'll never know me. they will never know who i really am.. these are just words. words that i use to express myself. you dont know me.. you dont know my deepest thoughts.. you dont know what i have to go through every day.. you just know me from words. true words that i type out to express my feelings.. words that no one will know the meaning to.
i try so hard to be perfect for you, but you dont see it. you'll never see it until it's gone. until i'm gone. and no, i'm not talking about killing myself, for those who fucking thought it! i may have suicidal tendencies and maybe even urges, but i'm not stupid enough to do it.
right now i'm just feeling blank. life is going by way to fast, i'm losing friends, i'm gaining others. i never hide who i am anymore. if you want to know something, then just ask me. but since you read my life.. i guess you'd think you knew everything about me then huh? you're wrong.. everyone is wrong.
words are words and they need to be spoken. someone needs to say something to someone else, before it's to late. others need to learn to shut their mouth before it's to late. to many words can hurt a person, and to little, can sometimes kill. be careful with what you say next time, or even think. because if you say something wrong, or dont even say it at all, you will cause a lot of pain.
speak the truth instead of hiding it! people know when you are bullshitting.. and it's not heathly for you.. not healthy at all.. it can ruin your IMAGE. it will give you a reputation that will make people hate you twice as much as a single person can hate you. imagine it.. not feeling wanted by anyone.. being hated by everyone.. it's a great life isnt it? is it something you want though? is it a name you want to have brought on you for the rest of your life? a liar.. a betrayer.. think about it... think about it nice.. and hard.
you can never see how much people can care for you if you dont open your eyes and heart. by not recognizing it can cause damage to you and the ones that care for you. dont think of them as your friends, family, boyfriend, girlfriend.. think of them as.. your heart.. your soul.. your feelings. think of them as you. you love yourself.. you know you love yourself.. so look at those that are close to you. just think of them as you.. they obviously love you. so get over your fucking pity trip.
you can think of me any way you want. my words are mine. my thoughts are mine. your words are yours and your thoughts are yours. i'm not going to force you to say anything to me. but it's best to get out your words now, so you dont have it bottled up inside of you.. taunting you and ruining your life.
i just want to stop trying.. just stop loving for you... just stop wanting to be happy.
i dont care what people think of me anymore.. they can say that i'm suicidal, but i dont give a shit anymore. think of me all that you want, but you'll never know me. they will never know who i really am.. these are just words. words that i use to express myself. you dont know me.. you dont know my deepest thoughts.. you dont know what i have to go through every day.. you just know me from words. true words that i type out to express my feelings.. words that no one will know the meaning to.
i try so hard to be perfect for you, but you dont see it. you'll never see it until it's gone. until i'm gone. and no, i'm not talking about killing myself, for those who fucking thought it! i may have suicidal tendencies and maybe even urges, but i'm not stupid enough to do it.
right now i'm just feeling blank. life is going by way to fast, i'm losing friends, i'm gaining others. i never hide who i am anymore. if you want to know something, then just ask me. but since you read my life.. i guess you'd think you knew everything about me then huh? you're wrong.. everyone is wrong.
words are words and they need to be spoken. someone needs to say something to someone else, before it's to late. others need to learn to shut their mouth before it's to late. to many words can hurt a person, and to little, can sometimes kill. be careful with what you say next time, or even think. because if you say something wrong, or dont even say it at all, you will cause a lot of pain.
speak the truth instead of hiding it! people know when you are bullshitting.. and it's not heathly for you.. not healthy at all.. it can ruin your IMAGE. it will give you a reputation that will make people hate you twice as much as a single person can hate you. imagine it.. not feeling wanted by anyone.. being hated by everyone.. it's a great life isnt it? is it something you want though? is it a name you want to have brought on you for the rest of your life? a liar.. a betrayer.. think about it... think about it nice.. and hard.
you can never see how much people can care for you if you dont open your eyes and heart. by not recognizing it can cause damage to you and the ones that care for you. dont think of them as your friends, family, boyfriend, girlfriend.. think of them as.. your heart.. your soul.. your feelings. think of them as you. you love yourself.. you know you love yourself.. so look at those that are close to you. just think of them as you.. they obviously love you. so get over your fucking pity trip.
you can think of me any way you want. my words are mine. my thoughts are mine. your words are yours and your thoughts are yours. i'm not going to force you to say anything to me. but it's best to get out your words now, so you dont have it bottled up inside of you.. taunting you and ruining your life.