Just kill me now.... PLZ
wow its been a long time since I wrote anything in this thing...
So went to the doctor today. Babys mesuring out to be 35 weeks, and I'm only 33 weeks. So hes gonna be a big baby. how awesome is that? hip hip hurray. Man, Sometimes I hate the internet{actually if I had another way to get in touch with all my friends then I wouldnt even use the internet-unless to get a reciepe or something...} You cant tell when someones being sarcastic or not. meh whatever.Still dealing with depression, but I can pretend to be happy on the outside, so I guess thats all that matters really... Sometimes I'm just to the edge of breaking down. My hip has been KILLING me lately. I can barely move! Its bad... I wake up in the middle of the night with pains all the time. I hate it! And its getting worse. The doctors are worried about how I will be able to to take labour and birth... so I might have to get a C-section. I am really scared about getting a C-section. I dont want to have to go through that... but whatevers the best and easiest for me and my baby. As long as they get this child outta me!!!!!!!!!!! thats all that matters as of right now. I'm so sick of being pregnant... I'm sick of not being able to do things for myself{like climbing outta bed!!} I just cant wait for this to be over! how could anyone want to become pregnant? I mean seriously! it sucks! I dont ever want to go through this again! but I know those damn horomones are gonna kick in and I'll most likely want another one! I want to get my tubes tyed...... but I dunno if thats a good or idea or not. I really honestly dont. Bc I knwo that in a couple of years I'll want another child. I just dont know if I can take another pregnancy {both mentally and physically}.... I feel like I'm ready to explode. @_@
So went to the doctor today. Babys mesuring out to be 35 weeks, and I'm only 33 weeks. So hes gonna be a big baby. how awesome is that? hip hip hurray. Man, Sometimes I hate the internet{actually if I had another way to get in touch with all my friends then I wouldnt even use the internet-unless to get a reciepe or something...} You cant tell when someones being sarcastic or not. meh whatever.Still dealing with depression, but I can pretend to be happy on the outside, so I guess thats all that matters really... Sometimes I'm just to the edge of breaking down. My hip has been KILLING me lately. I can barely move! Its bad... I wake up in the middle of the night with pains all the time. I hate it! And its getting worse. The doctors are worried about how I will be able to to take labour and birth... so I might have to get a C-section. I am really scared about getting a C-section. I dont want to have to go through that... but whatevers the best and easiest for me and my baby. As long as they get this child outta me!!!!!!!!!!! thats all that matters as of right now. I'm so sick of being pregnant... I'm sick of not being able to do things for myself{like climbing outta bed!!} I just cant wait for this to be over! how could anyone want to become pregnant? I mean seriously! it sucks! I dont ever want to go through this again! but I know those damn horomones are gonna kick in and I'll most likely want another one! I want to get my tubes tyed...... but I dunno if thats a good or idea or not. I really honestly dont. Bc I knwo that in a couple of years I'll want another child. I just dont know if I can take another pregnancy {both mentally and physically}.... I feel like I'm ready to explode. @_@