i know none of you care about what im about to write, but i have to get it out

[punkcutie]

i am a fake. nothing i do is write.. i really feel bad... like... i made a promise to God.. but i wasnt ready.. i thought i was. but i dont have the strenght to be true to it... i feel unwanted bythe people at my church, i dont fit in at any group... the Jr High kids(allie and all them) are happy and yeah, and they all know eachother deeply... and i just dont fit there.. and the Sr. Higher... i just dont fit there mold.. i just dont feel wanted or needed.. no one knows about how i really feel inside. no one helps me.. the one person i have put all my trust in... doesnt talk to be anymore... are realationship has fallen through.. i dont even know who i really am... i need to find me.. but i dont know where to look... i know this sounds like a 'oh help poor danie, feel bad for little her' but its not. i dont even care if any one reads this, or cares.. but i am so cold... as me and allie were talking... my secruity blanket is gone... he left. i know i have been hurt, but i want my blankie back...

And for God,
im sorry i broke my promise. and please forgie me.. i need strengh Lord.. please... help me find the strenght to move on.. please forgive me if i am not on your path, but i belive in you... like no other..

Danielle