its 330 am

[punkcrocko_shyt]

I cant sleep or anything i have been crying uncontrollably i am crying right now

i drank two fifths of liquor last night

i wanted to get in my car and drive into soemthing

i wanted her to see my wrecked mangled car on the evening news

i wanted to punch his face clean in

i wanted to slit my fucking wrists one thing stopped me

well two things

my best friend made me cry on the phone she wouldnt hang up till i did

and my good friend matt said i couldnt go because who would be his best man at the wedding

this broke my heart i destroyed my room threw up on everything i own almost and almost ended my damned life ove "love" maybe i use love to describe a feelign im not sure about

i dotn know but i just want to love and be loved back

i couldnt stay at the house tonight

why am i so selfish if shes happy then thats good right why do i still want to set his room in fire and hit him with a hammer when i see him come in at night knowing hes been with her

fffffffuuuuuuuuccccccccckkkkkkkk

i may leave the military and go back to indiana i feel insane right now