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[punkchick1007]

Well I could be so much better right now. Zack and I are at it once again. This time things are nt looking so good and Sandy keeps telling me to thins positive and be happy and I have been trying. But hun it is not working. I have become very depressed and thoughts of suicide are coming back. The med cabine is looking really good right about now. But don't worry I wont do anything because I don't want to hurt the people around me, well I don't think I will doing anything any time soon but I guess we will just have to see about that no wont we. I want things to get better with him and I but its hard to fix things if he is not willing to put his friends on hold so that the two of us can sit down and talk face to face. Yes I could talk to him about it on the phone but I would rather talk to him in person so that way he can see my emotions and I can see his. I just really don't get anything that is going on right now. It is very hard I know that much.

Other then that school is going pretty good. Classes are not all that hard I am passing ALL of them and that is a very god thing. But Schippers class is not going to well and I need to fix that grade fast. But other then that it is going well with my 4 classes, well only because I don't count being a TA as a class.

Work is going well. I am still working at papa Johns and for another 2 or 3 weeks it's anniversary, oh joy I just love that.

Well thats all I have to say about my life right now. But I will get back to you all on a later date.

Michelle