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So, I've been sick for a while now and could possibly need surgery, but honestly, I'm still pretty happy. Other than my friendship with Maxe completely falling out (her clone is her new best friend), I've just been hanging out at home or trying to go to work, if I'm not vomiting. This whole thing with Maxe is quite childish, on both of our parts, I suppose.
With her constant need to want to be accepted in her little group of "artists", and me saying that she should just be herself. Then talking to the only other person I have in Ohio, except for Ashley, is Maxe's ex boyfriend.
I understand that talking about his ex must be strange, but it's not like Maxe could care even a little bit if I really needed her. If her gay friend asked her to watch him make out with his new boyfriend, she'd rather do that than visit me in dumb ol' Dayton.
Okay. So, I'm a bit bitter. Mostly because she's so manipulative and people love her anyway for it. Because she's "funny", or "silly". Fun to be around. Easy to relax around.
I've always been a serious person. If I'm joking around you, chances are I'm extremely comfortable with you, which is rare.
We're obviously different people.
I do miss my friends though, which has been the main reason why I want to move out of Ohio so badly. When returning to a place after so many years, you start to realize that things will never be the same. You aren't the same, so therefore, neither are the people you used to know.
Which is why I can never move back to Florida. No matter how much I want to.
But I think that the best thing for me to do is just go to a new place, with new people, and start over. Make new friends. And not necessarily cut off all connections with the people I used to know in different states, but obviously start anew.
Or maybe I just need to get out more, hah.
Alas though. Looks like I'll be stuck here for another year to save the money to move somewhere.
At least I have Cedar Point...?
With her constant need to want to be accepted in her little group of "artists", and me saying that she should just be herself. Then talking to the only other person I have in Ohio, except for Ashley, is Maxe's ex boyfriend.
I understand that talking about his ex must be strange, but it's not like Maxe could care even a little bit if I really needed her. If her gay friend asked her to watch him make out with his new boyfriend, she'd rather do that than visit me in dumb ol' Dayton.
Okay. So, I'm a bit bitter. Mostly because she's so manipulative and people love her anyway for it. Because she's "funny", or "silly". Fun to be around. Easy to relax around.
I've always been a serious person. If I'm joking around you, chances are I'm extremely comfortable with you, which is rare.
We're obviously different people.
I do miss my friends though, which has been the main reason why I want to move out of Ohio so badly. When returning to a place after so many years, you start to realize that things will never be the same. You aren't the same, so therefore, neither are the people you used to know.
Which is why I can never move back to Florida. No matter how much I want to.
But I think that the best thing for me to do is just go to a new place, with new people, and start over. Make new friends. And not necessarily cut off all connections with the people I used to know in different states, but obviously start anew.
Or maybe I just need to get out more, hah.
Alas though. Looks like I'll be stuck here for another year to save the money to move somewhere.
At least I have Cedar Point...?