Si tu supieras o comprendieras, pero tu nunca comprenderas
I really like that subject, but it doesn't really fit with my mood.
His journal entry made me happy, sort of. Here it is:
I do think about Veronica. I think about her a lot when I feel lonely. Sure the pain and anger that I felt has somewhat gone away, and I've thought about calling her sometimes and making my peace with her by telling her,I'm not mad at you. But I just can't do it. To many bad feelings about what happened. I still care about her a lot. I wonder if she is ok, when she doesn't post in her journal. I worry that one day she'll stop posting and I won't know what happened to her, and then I'll have to make that phone call and find out something bad had happened.
I don't know when I'll talk to her again. I don't even know if I'm ready to talk with her because I don't know what I would say.
I haven't found anyone close to what Veronica and I had. Sure I have a friend I talk to and sometimes hang out with, but most of the time I'm alone. I'm getting use to being alone, but I still miss having someone be there for me. The person I wanted to take most to the concert was Veronica. But I couldn't ask her to come here and then get attached again. It hurt to much losing her, and I don't want to go though that again. I already went though that with her many times. But I still care about her and wonder what it would be like to see her again someday
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Its kind of interesting what we're doing right now. Not talking or communicating in any way, except that we both know we're reading each other's journals. Which is good.
But I know if I called him, I wouldn't tell him everything. Part of him would probably want to know everything, though. But I wouldn't want to make him cry.
When I call him, whenever that will be, I will just try and make it go well. And if it doesn't, that will be ok.
His journal entry made me happy, sort of. Here it is:
I do think about Veronica. I think about her a lot when I feel lonely. Sure the pain and anger that I felt has somewhat gone away, and I've thought about calling her sometimes and making my peace with her by telling her,I'm not mad at you. But I just can't do it. To many bad feelings about what happened. I still care about her a lot. I wonder if she is ok, when she doesn't post in her journal. I worry that one day she'll stop posting and I won't know what happened to her, and then I'll have to make that phone call and find out something bad had happened.
I don't know when I'll talk to her again. I don't even know if I'm ready to talk with her because I don't know what I would say.
I haven't found anyone close to what Veronica and I had. Sure I have a friend I talk to and sometimes hang out with, but most of the time I'm alone. I'm getting use to being alone, but I still miss having someone be there for me. The person I wanted to take most to the concert was Veronica. But I couldn't ask her to come here and then get attached again. It hurt to much losing her, and I don't want to go though that again. I already went though that with her many times. But I still care about her and wonder what it would be like to see her again someday
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Its kind of interesting what we're doing right now. Not talking or communicating in any way, except that we both know we're reading each other's journals. Which is good.
But I know if I called him, I wouldn't tell him everything. Part of him would probably want to know everything, though. But I wouldn't want to make him cry.
When I call him, whenever that will be, I will just try and make it go well. And if it doesn't, that will be ok.