no reason to be happy
well just found today my mother is in the hospital again. i hate know that my mother has to live through all of this agony doctors say there is nothing more they can do for her anymore that just keep drugging her up to get rid of the pain. Now it is just a fucking waiting game I DON'T WANT MY MOTHER TO DIE! about i guess i have to come to grips with the obvious reality of this situation this totally blows.
the thing that hurts the most is she never really got to she me and my brother grow up and now he is a total fuck up and a waste of breath and space. And she will probably never see me ever get married or have kids it just kills to know that have of her memories in life are four walls in a hospital what the hell kind of life that i feel like i am going insane just thinking about it but i can't get these thoughts out of my head
the thing that hurts the most is she never really got to she me and my brother grow up and now he is a total fuck up and a waste of breath and space. And she will probably never see me ever get married or have kids it just kills to know that have of her memories in life are four walls in a hospital what the hell kind of life that i feel like i am going insane just thinking about it but i can't get these thoughts out of my head