fuck you
Well I thought Brendan and I had worked things out like always. But as it happens every goddamn week, him and I are once again shitty.
I just wish he was normal and could tell me if he just liked me or not. If he doesn't then just tell me. I try way too fucking hard to fix things between us and i mean why try if he doesn't like me. I just don't understand what the fuck I do wrong. Just yesterday we went to the movies that i paid most for and we went to walmart and bought candy...just fun stuff. I don't know it was fun. I wish he could actually have fun with me :( The really really sad part though..I had more fun the day before with Eric Brian and Heather when we went to the movies and eatnpark, then when I hung out with Read Sam and Bren and went to the movies and eatnpark.
I think it's time I let him go. But I don't want to. I'll do anything, ANYTHING to stray away from that. But it's his call I guess.
I just love how eric saves me all the time. He is seriously one of my best friends. I had brendan drop me off at like 4 in the morning to peters so I could be with eric. Eric just held me while I cried and such. I was there until about 6 am then eric just took me home. Yeah that was carazzzy
I got my carlidge pierced today with eric, brian, and pete. That was hella fun and I didnt even die like I usually do.
I saw amanda ski at the mall and shes like OMG your senior picture is so cute on that sonneys flier that came in the mail. I was like wtf. goddamn sonneys.
oh well.
lalalala I'm hurting.
I just wish he was normal and could tell me if he just liked me or not. If he doesn't then just tell me. I try way too fucking hard to fix things between us and i mean why try if he doesn't like me. I just don't understand what the fuck I do wrong. Just yesterday we went to the movies that i paid most for and we went to walmart and bought candy...just fun stuff. I don't know it was fun. I wish he could actually have fun with me :( The really really sad part though..I had more fun the day before with Eric Brian and Heather when we went to the movies and eatnpark, then when I hung out with Read Sam and Bren and went to the movies and eatnpark.
I think it's time I let him go. But I don't want to. I'll do anything, ANYTHING to stray away from that. But it's his call I guess.
I just love how eric saves me all the time. He is seriously one of my best friends. I had brendan drop me off at like 4 in the morning to peters so I could be with eric. Eric just held me while I cried and such. I was there until about 6 am then eric just took me home. Yeah that was carazzzy
I got my carlidge pierced today with eric, brian, and pete. That was hella fun and I didnt even die like I usually do.
I saw amanda ski at the mall and shes like OMG your senior picture is so cute on that sonneys flier that came in the mail. I was like wtf. goddamn sonneys.
oh well.
lalalala I'm hurting.