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sometimes i forget that i'm alive. i suppose that alive just feels like how things are, rather than one of two ways that things could be. it's dumb. i just mean that a lot of the time i am not thankful or even aware that i am alive. i'll work on it.
i've been having second thoughts about moving to spokane. i was going to sit down and write a list of the positives and negatives of living in both cheney and spokane, but i know that my main reason for being scared is that i will be moving away from ryan. which sounds silly, because it is only a 20 minute drive, and i will be out here lots for school anyways, and there's a bus and all that. but then our schedules will be so opposite this summer, and it will be harder to see each other next year. and he doesn't drive. it's just freaking me out that i'm freaking out. i know i am too far in to back out, so i just have to be an adult about it. it could very well end up better for us. i guess i'll just have to see...
i've been having second thoughts about moving to spokane. i was going to sit down and write a list of the positives and negatives of living in both cheney and spokane, but i know that my main reason for being scared is that i will be moving away from ryan. which sounds silly, because it is only a 20 minute drive, and i will be out here lots for school anyways, and there's a bus and all that. but then our schedules will be so opposite this summer, and it will be harder to see each other next year. and he doesn't drive. it's just freaking me out that i'm freaking out. i know i am too far in to back out, so i just have to be an adult about it. it could very well end up better for us. i guess i'll just have to see...