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so last night was dead good apart from most of the mission.
headed up town at 5ish and met alan, jett and mandy. then gary came to meet us.
then we headed to frankensteins and met up with everyone for craigs birthday.
amazing seeing craig again.
and matt!
and it was lovely to finally meet vernie who came all the way from the states.
got a drink bought for me then after that me and gary went to subway to get food.
then alan and mandy left to go to the cinema.
after subway me and gary headed back and proceeded to drink more with everyone and had lots of banter etc.
then about..hmm...7/8ish we decided to all go get a carry out and sit in the meadows.
i already had half a litre of peach schnapps on me so i went and got some lemonade and a cheeky cheeky bottle of red square.
meadows was amazing fun. suuuch a laugh.
me, ailsa, gary, jonny and campbell decided to play spin the bottle and obviously by the end of that everyone had pulled each other. so funny.
had a 3 way pull with ailsa and vernie.
and randomly me and craig pulled haha.
me and matt kissed "passionately" hahahaha.
then craig and everyone left to go back to musslebrough (sp?)
so it was just me, ailsa, gary, jonny and campbell left.
we sat for ages bantering about mostly sex.
then jonny was sick and me and ailsa headed to the tavern to meet kate, kayleigh, shoe and becca.
then we headed to the studios where we met back up with campbell and gary...jonny went home obv.
me and gary pulled some.
then bradley came and i sat talking to him a lot of the night.
but then gary was all like dead emo and stuff so i took him off to talk to him.
and im dead worried about him.
and basically we're not getting back together and i dont think he likes me.
so i was crying my eyes out. and he was like almost crying.
and then people cheered me up.
kissed bradley again. (did no bad for myself last night eh! 7 pulls..yas!)
then after mission i went to talk to gary but he wouldnt tell me what was wrong with him.
so that made me more upset cause i hate him shutting me out.
becca and bradley got bus home.
and i had to wait till 4:20 til my bus came but these 3 random ned guys came and sat with me and they were totally quality and so funny. well loved me.
got home made pasta. went to bed at almost 6am and i couldnt sleep..my mind was on overdrive and i kept thinking too much. so i read for a bit then just tried to get to sleep.
obviously got to sleep eventually.
woke up at about 11ish this morning with a text from richard inviting me to opium tonight.
might go for a wee bit if i can get some extra cash.
becca moves to glasgow today and im trying not to be sad.
IM SEEING HER ON WEDNESDAY so thats why im not sad. cant wait.
so aye i think i might just have to give up on gary.
i like him sooooooooooooooo much and care about him millions.
but we're not going anywhere and that hurts more.
him shutting me out hurts me so much but he doesnt realise.
well actually he might cause he saw how upset i was.
and i hate him seeing me upset.
but sometimes i cant help it and i dont know why.
im worried about him but i cant force him to tell me how he's feeling.
cause he just wont and it hurts too much.
GOSH.
but a huge thanks to everyone last night for cheering me up.
love you x
headed up town at 5ish and met alan, jett and mandy. then gary came to meet us.
then we headed to frankensteins and met up with everyone for craigs birthday.
amazing seeing craig again.
and matt!
and it was lovely to finally meet vernie who came all the way from the states.
got a drink bought for me then after that me and gary went to subway to get food.
then alan and mandy left to go to the cinema.
after subway me and gary headed back and proceeded to drink more with everyone and had lots of banter etc.
then about..hmm...7/8ish we decided to all go get a carry out and sit in the meadows.
i already had half a litre of peach schnapps on me so i went and got some lemonade and a cheeky cheeky bottle of red square.
meadows was amazing fun. suuuch a laugh.
me, ailsa, gary, jonny and campbell decided to play spin the bottle and obviously by the end of that everyone had pulled each other. so funny.
had a 3 way pull with ailsa and vernie.
and randomly me and craig pulled haha.
me and matt kissed "passionately" hahahaha.
then craig and everyone left to go back to musslebrough (sp?)
so it was just me, ailsa, gary, jonny and campbell left.
we sat for ages bantering about mostly sex.
then jonny was sick and me and ailsa headed to the tavern to meet kate, kayleigh, shoe and becca.
then we headed to the studios where we met back up with campbell and gary...jonny went home obv.
me and gary pulled some.
then bradley came and i sat talking to him a lot of the night.
but then gary was all like dead emo and stuff so i took him off to talk to him.
and im dead worried about him.
and basically we're not getting back together and i dont think he likes me.
so i was crying my eyes out. and he was like almost crying.
and then people cheered me up.
kissed bradley again. (did no bad for myself last night eh! 7 pulls..yas!)
then after mission i went to talk to gary but he wouldnt tell me what was wrong with him.
so that made me more upset cause i hate him shutting me out.
becca and bradley got bus home.
and i had to wait till 4:20 til my bus came but these 3 random ned guys came and sat with me and they were totally quality and so funny. well loved me.
got home made pasta. went to bed at almost 6am and i couldnt sleep..my mind was on overdrive and i kept thinking too much. so i read for a bit then just tried to get to sleep.
obviously got to sleep eventually.
woke up at about 11ish this morning with a text from richard inviting me to opium tonight.
might go for a wee bit if i can get some extra cash.
becca moves to glasgow today and im trying not to be sad.
IM SEEING HER ON WEDNESDAY so thats why im not sad. cant wait.
so aye i think i might just have to give up on gary.
i like him sooooooooooooooo much and care about him millions.
but we're not going anywhere and that hurts more.
him shutting me out hurts me so much but he doesnt realise.
well actually he might cause he saw how upset i was.
and i hate him seeing me upset.
but sometimes i cant help it and i dont know why.
im worried about him but i cant force him to tell me how he's feeling.
cause he just wont and it hurts too much.
GOSH.
but a huge thanks to everyone last night for cheering me up.
love you x