supress this, mother fucker.
i'm not really sure who i am right now. these days. i drink almost every night. but i took 4 nights off in a row and felt really good about it. it let me feel that i'm ok without drinking. that i can still have fun and be me without it.. not that i did much. i dont do much these days. i've become a recluse. but what am i feeling right now? what is this feeling inside me? i dont even know. who am i? only i can figure that out. because nobody knows me right now. not even my best friends. not you . or you. because i have kept all of my feelings inside. even though i'm not sure what they are. suppression is my new best friend. and it is staying true so far. we'll see how it works out in the end. like a real person does? untrustworthy? unreliable? we'll see. it's been a good friend so far...