what have i done?
so i forced myself up the stairs tonight. to a place that i hate to be these days. in my hot as hell bedroom... i'm a little drunk, which is nothing new... but yeah.
i've been sitting alone, watching the Wonder Years, as i do from time to time, being my favorite show... and i realized... there has been a few great times these past few weeks, and i havnt't even made an entry about.
i went with some of my best friends to Las Vegas, and LA, and San Francisco. and i had the best Forth of July ever.. and tonight, i had a great night with a new friend.
But there's something missing. MY FAMILY. A group of people who are more important than a casino. or a slot machine. a poker table. a case of beer and fireworks. yeah. i need to be a better son. a better brother. a better person. i think i have missed more birthdays this year than ever. because i'm so focused on ME. on my job, on my band, on my friends. on my need to do what i think is more important at the time. a day off. to what? relax and get drunk? wow. go me. i think sometimes life is passing me up. but maybe i'm passing IT up. sure, my friends are the best things in the world, and maybe they ARE there for me more than my family. but that's no excuse to neglect them. they are more important than some girl i just met to talk to. or some show i wanna see. i've lost all of my grand parents the last couple years and dont really seem to care. my dad. he is in a place where he needs me the most. and i dont call him. it's time to wake up and be somebody more than who i think i am.
i'm sorry.
i've been sitting alone, watching the Wonder Years, as i do from time to time, being my favorite show... and i realized... there has been a few great times these past few weeks, and i havnt't even made an entry about.
i went with some of my best friends to Las Vegas, and LA, and San Francisco. and i had the best Forth of July ever.. and tonight, i had a great night with a new friend.
But there's something missing. MY FAMILY. A group of people who are more important than a casino. or a slot machine. a poker table. a case of beer and fireworks. yeah. i need to be a better son. a better brother. a better person. i think i have missed more birthdays this year than ever. because i'm so focused on ME. on my job, on my band, on my friends. on my need to do what i think is more important at the time. a day off. to what? relax and get drunk? wow. go me. i think sometimes life is passing me up. but maybe i'm passing IT up. sure, my friends are the best things in the world, and maybe they ARE there for me more than my family. but that's no excuse to neglect them. they are more important than some girl i just met to talk to. or some show i wanna see. i've lost all of my grand parents the last couple years and dont really seem to care. my dad. he is in a place where he needs me the most. and i dont call him. it's time to wake up and be somebody more than who i think i am.
i'm sorry.