I'm feeling rather blah... dude.. this sucks.
So I tend to blog when I'm feeling down or angry or whatever.. and that sux for those of you who acctually read this, although i"m betting that not many people do.
I need to re-focuse my self and get a certain someone out of my head.. for good. I'm so fucking annoyed with that it's not even funny.
I don't know how to do it and it's driving me bananas. I don't know if they are doing the same, i'm guessing they arn't..seriously, no one else could be this lame...well maybe.. but not them.
so what do i do? how do I get over this and why the fuck is it taking so long. A friend suggested that I contanct the person and tell them how I feel.. but really, how is that helpful? "I can't stop thinking about you even though you acted like a jerk and you're an immature ass.. but yeah" seriously!
I added them back to my messenger.. had a 2 min convo with them.. told me to keep in touch and that it was nice to hear from me.. okay.. but was it really? really? I can't really believe any of that.. i want to but I can't. How can I when everything that this person said to me was squashed by thier actions. I don't really trust them.. I want to believe they are being honest, but I don't know.
and really.. telling them how I feel.. makes me look like a crazy person I think... I'm THAT GIRL now.. that girl.. the one who can't get over shit and lets it permiate the rest of her life and fuck everything else up.. I can't be happy with the positive shit that's going on because it's overshadowed by the thoughts... it's crap. really.. it's crap.
That's all that I got.
I need to re-focuse my self and get a certain someone out of my head.. for good. I'm so fucking annoyed with that it's not even funny.
I don't know how to do it and it's driving me bananas. I don't know if they are doing the same, i'm guessing they arn't..seriously, no one else could be this lame...well maybe.. but not them.
so what do i do? how do I get over this and why the fuck is it taking so long. A friend suggested that I contanct the person and tell them how I feel.. but really, how is that helpful? "I can't stop thinking about you even though you acted like a jerk and you're an immature ass.. but yeah" seriously!
I added them back to my messenger.. had a 2 min convo with them.. told me to keep in touch and that it was nice to hear from me.. okay.. but was it really? really? I can't really believe any of that.. i want to but I can't. How can I when everything that this person said to me was squashed by thier actions. I don't really trust them.. I want to believe they are being honest, but I don't know.
and really.. telling them how I feel.. makes me look like a crazy person I think... I'm THAT GIRL now.. that girl.. the one who can't get over shit and lets it permiate the rest of her life and fuck everything else up.. I can't be happy with the positive shit that's going on because it's overshadowed by the thoughts... it's crap. really.. it's crap.
That's all that I got.