*sigh*
just came back from food and a wander around the campus. tried to cheer myself up by visiting the ducks. didn't work. just been thinking about what i've left behind and what i've (potentially) lost. all my friends seem to be doing just fine without me... and i just can't say the same about myself. this bloody sucks. my roomie's been going off places with her boyfriend... which leaves me two things: 1) missing daniel more since he's not here and i don't have the luxury of going to do stuff with him whenever the urge strikes and 2) alone time. and alone time when i'm already depressed is just a fricking bad idea. i don't do well when alone. it makes me sad. and since i'm already sad... well, yeah... that and being alone means silence. and silence drives me completely insane. so i'm sitting in my little hiding spot, moping about, with the varekai cd dan got playing in the background, wishing i were home or had homework to distract me. *anything* to get me out of this mood. i know dan would suggest go do something you want to do... but the problem is - i don't want to do anything. i *want* to go home and hang out with friends. i don't *want* to be stuck in a dorm room anymore. too late now tho. i'm here and i'm stuck here until december at the very least. maybe i can come back mid-semester... but by then i'm afraid my friends will have forgotten me... and i'll have nothing really to go home *to*. the only people i really worry about are sherry, leena, ed, and daniel. all my other friends i went out pretty infrequently with, so my having left can't have much impact. brummer i didn't spend much time with until end of summer, so he can't be too bereft either. ed seems to be doing alright...playing ddr and such... so i'm not overly concerned about him. sherry's doing alright too... she helped drop me off and now she gets to spend time with people before she goes back to slo... the duck has things to keep her amused... school and work to keep herself occupied. and daniel... is also doing quite well. he's keeping himself amused. i'm guessing if he does miss me, it can't be that much... except for maybe the standard "damn, there's no cassie here... oh well, new activity" idea... but i'm going to go so i can go tour campus/find my classes in a bit... so this is reading material for people who are bored, but have friends to go out with so *shouldn't* be bored... but now i go boom... byebye