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I wish I had words for what i am going through, I am however at a loss. I have never been through such a roller coaster. These moments are so new to me.
I am in unfamiliar territory.
And even saying that seems so trite to me, so nonchalant, almost incomprehesible.
Have you ever been on an adventure? Well, I am on one, only i dont quite know what i am searching for.
I am calling this my renaissance, because I embarked on this journey to challenge myself, to find my voice. The artist in me was screaming to break down the walls of what i considered normal and seek something else; what i do not know.
Now I dont want to seem pedantic or contrived, but that really was my mission.
I wanted challenge, and difficulty.
I wanted to be in an environment that was not my own, and see if i could... survive, and flourish.
Well.... I have.
I have put myself in a position of great wealth, and i have ensured i have nothing to do in my free time but create. I am an artist. I spend my free time creating. I catch myself waking from dreams with an uncontrollable urge to put to words what i was just dreaming of. I find myself scribbling verses of poetry up and down my body, occasionally running out of skin
i miss you....
i do
I am in unfamiliar territory.
And even saying that seems so trite to me, so nonchalant, almost incomprehesible.
Have you ever been on an adventure? Well, I am on one, only i dont quite know what i am searching for.
I am calling this my renaissance, because I embarked on this journey to challenge myself, to find my voice. The artist in me was screaming to break down the walls of what i considered normal and seek something else; what i do not know.
Now I dont want to seem pedantic or contrived, but that really was my mission.
I wanted challenge, and difficulty.
I wanted to be in an environment that was not my own, and see if i could... survive, and flourish.
Well.... I have.
I have put myself in a position of great wealth, and i have ensured i have nothing to do in my free time but create. I am an artist. I spend my free time creating. I catch myself waking from dreams with an uncontrollable urge to put to words what i was just dreaming of. I find myself scribbling verses of poetry up and down my body, occasionally running out of skin
i miss you....
i do