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ugh, first i have to say that i hate people who speculation shit about me and my life. If i dont come out and tell you something dont assume anything cause most likely its not true. grrrrrrrr
secondly, so apparently i had a good week at work last week. My boss complimented me which was huge. But now I feel like i hit my peak and now theres nothing but downhill. I dont know if i'm burnt out already or what but i feel like nothing i do is right and its stressing me out like none other. I've also been soooo exhausted lately. And like i've literally been getting enough hours of sleep but i'm so tired. maybe it does have a lot to do with being stressed out about life. ugh...
i still have so much doubt about my job. i dont think that i'm doing well despite the praise i've recently received. i still dont know what i'm doing half of the time and when i do think i know what i'm doing, i'm pretty sure that its wrong. i feel like theres so much expectation riding on me and i'm soooo worried about letting people down that i'm messing up more. i really think that maybe it was a mistake to take this job only cause i dont know what i'm doing AT ALL. i dont like to fail... i've rarely failed in my life but i feel like i am. i just dont know what to do about it all
secondly, so apparently i had a good week at work last week. My boss complimented me which was huge. But now I feel like i hit my peak and now theres nothing but downhill. I dont know if i'm burnt out already or what but i feel like nothing i do is right and its stressing me out like none other. I've also been soooo exhausted lately. And like i've literally been getting enough hours of sleep but i'm so tired. maybe it does have a lot to do with being stressed out about life. ugh...
i still have so much doubt about my job. i dont think that i'm doing well despite the praise i've recently received. i still dont know what i'm doing half of the time and when i do think i know what i'm doing, i'm pretty sure that its wrong. i feel like theres so much expectation riding on me and i'm soooo worried about letting people down that i'm messing up more. i really think that maybe it was a mistake to take this job only cause i dont know what i'm doing AT ALL. i dont like to fail... i've rarely failed in my life but i feel like i am. i just dont know what to do about it all