my confession meant nothing.

[punchintheheart]

i have never felt so fucking lost in my life.
i have what ive always wanted. someone who i can love
and to love me back. noah and i. we are on the same level.
i love that.
i dont need the past memories of all the douchebags i use to like.
fuck em all... they were never right anyways.
i have never been so happy..
but then again i have never been so fucking depressed.
this school is tearing me apart. i have no friends to connect with
like at home or in atlanta. all i have is noah. and im not the desperate type
so i dont want to cling to him bc i need something else.
ive lost my passion in writing, painting, drawing. everything.
something isnt right but i cant figure out what that is.
i need something to keep me together.
i take out my depression on noah and that isnt fair but all this
keeping everything inside is tearing me apart. making me someone that im really not.
i dont want to leave here because noah is here. but.. would he leave if he got the chance too?
...who knows.
fuck it
im gonna get the other side of my lip pierced.
ps. laura. i like the pictures on ur site. hot. i want to do you.
i love youu.