A Stairway to Somewhere
I feel like I lived a whole lifetime in this one little week. The past seven days have been a roller coaster of confidence, frustration, giving up on myself, disappointment, illness, drinking, encouragement, extreme joy, research and rest.
Sometimes you are so concerned with the end result you miss out on what you are really here for. I kept saying to myself I just had to get through this one thing and I kept missing out on the experience. I mean, isn't this why I am here - because I love art, enjoy researching and have an intense curiosity? I kept letting it go right past without ever taking it in because I was so scared this path wouldn't take me where I want to go.
It was my unwillingness to take in the moment, to breath in and experience it all that led me to my spiral of frustration this past week. Everything was piling upon me and getting so hard that I forgot to take a second and asses my goals and the situation. Living in the moment and accepting the experience is something I need to learn to do, especially through tough times.
So here I sit, drinking my tea, making an effort to commit to my dreams and to school. I have no idea where this experience will take me, but I will enjoy the walk down the path.