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nail me to a god damn mountain!
get a massive fucking eagle to eat my insides daily!
it comes back every day, and every day my organs do too
and it just keeps eating them and eating them
and this goes and goes and goes on and on
til the oceans overflow and the eagle drowns
and i gasp for air that never comes
and some day ill be lucky enough to see the sun explode
and itll burn me alive and then nothing!
ill float, alone and tired and empty
for a thousand billion more years
til another earth is born to shackle my undying shitty bones to,
til another primordial jizz pool spits out something eagle-like again
to eat me alive daily, again, and again, and again!
til the earth and sun die again and again!
it never ends it never ends it never ends etc etc etc
sink me neck deep in an endless river with an apple just out of reach!
let me drink once in a thousand years from the saltwater
only to realize what thirst it brings
to keep me from drinking for another thousand years!
let me reach the apple once in a millennium
only to find it full of worms and mold,
to sink me dejected back into the river
where i forget again, in a thousand years time,
how fruitless the tree im reaching for really is!
let me wade endlessly,
let my bones tire and tear ducts dry out and skin slough off,
soaked and rotten with the abrasive current i cant escape from,
with land on a horizon ill never reach!
drop a fucking boulder on my back to shove up a hill, day after day,
only to reach the top to rest and blink once to find myself at the bottom
with the boulder yet again,
with my feet blistered and bones broken and skin burnt raw from the beating sun!
i feel so fucking ancient and broken and bleeding and lifeless
like progress is a joke ive been told every second of my life,
like im only living to be alive to die to be born again, to live to die to be born again!
im sick with lack of ending, im sick with commas and ellipses
im bleeding To Be Continueds like daytime god damn television
get a massive fucking eagle to eat my insides daily!
it comes back every day, and every day my organs do too
and it just keeps eating them and eating them
and this goes and goes and goes on and on
til the oceans overflow and the eagle drowns
and i gasp for air that never comes
and some day ill be lucky enough to see the sun explode
and itll burn me alive and then nothing!
ill float, alone and tired and empty
for a thousand billion more years
til another earth is born to shackle my undying shitty bones to,
til another primordial jizz pool spits out something eagle-like again
to eat me alive daily, again, and again, and again!
til the earth and sun die again and again!
it never ends it never ends it never ends etc etc etc
sink me neck deep in an endless river with an apple just out of reach!
let me drink once in a thousand years from the saltwater
only to realize what thirst it brings
to keep me from drinking for another thousand years!
let me reach the apple once in a millennium
only to find it full of worms and mold,
to sink me dejected back into the river
where i forget again, in a thousand years time,
how fruitless the tree im reaching for really is!
let me wade endlessly,
let my bones tire and tear ducts dry out and skin slough off,
soaked and rotten with the abrasive current i cant escape from,
with land on a horizon ill never reach!
drop a fucking boulder on my back to shove up a hill, day after day,
only to reach the top to rest and blink once to find myself at the bottom
with the boulder yet again,
with my feet blistered and bones broken and skin burnt raw from the beating sun!
i feel so fucking ancient and broken and bleeding and lifeless
like progress is a joke ive been told every second of my life,
like im only living to be alive to die to be born again, to live to die to be born again!
im sick with lack of ending, im sick with commas and ellipses
im bleeding To Be Continueds like daytime god damn television