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So here I am once again. I can't concentrate on studying. I never can. I can't concentrate on anything anymore. I feel drained of emotion at the moment. It's weird. Everything feels weird. An A in Math and I am still not happy or more relaxed. Finals are killing me. School is draining me. Ritalin is amazing. I wish I didn't get rid of all my adderall. I could use some. Sleep never comes easy. My stomach feels jumbled. My head spinning. Time moves way too fast. Deep inhale. Let it out slow. Thoughts keep racing. Annie moves to Boston soon. Depressing. She is my family. I don't want her to go. She is my sanity. I love her. I am taking a trip to Boston soon. I need to. Adam is good. He is someone else I never want to lose. That scares me. Very much. Christmas is in a couple days. I am not ready. It doesn't feel like Christmas. It doesn't feel like anything. I want to look at the lights. I want to look at store windows. I want to live. Emily and I are getting that tattoo very soon. I hope it comes out good. It looks like this.. 
ok I really need to study.
ok I really need to study.