"you feel into a rabbit hole, covered yourself up in smoke baby tell me where'd you go for daysnday
i dont even wanna write this but im going to....im at home now away from my apartment of hell , my life spiraled down so fast from a month ago... lost my money, my apartement, all to substances , and now im going back to manatee glens and my life is going to feel meaningless again and im going to have to heal myself...i feel so empty and alone, I just want someone to be here right now and tell me they love me and they care and to lay here with me. im freaking out my life is shretted all because of my own foolishness, as well as a girl I let fool me into beleveing she loved me....she loved me alright for my loan ... im so torn from the inside out, i cant breath what did i do to myself. what did i become. how much do i have to lose before i learn, its looking more like I need to ened up dead to learn...