Our Lives Weren't Our Lives Anymore (5/19)
Title: Our Lives Weren't Our Lives Anymore
Characters: Key, Onew, Minho, Taemin, Jonghyun and some other characters
Rating: PG-13 - NC-17
Genre: Angst, AU, Romance, Smut (for certain chapters)
Status: On Going
Summary:
Tried living their suffering lives...
Tried to escape all obstacles...
Tried to get their happiness...
They needed a long, long way...
Those were their lives...
TAEMIN'S POV
I felt my hand cold. I was so nervous and scared at the same time. How if he would hurt me? My heart pounded faster and faster when I got closer and closer to the room. My master open the door. I bowed my head. I didn't have any daring to face my guest. I still bowed.
"Ah, you've been here. This is Taemin, the boy who you wanted to." He pushed me a little and closed the door behind me. I still didn't brought up my head.
Silence...he didn't say anything...I just felt he was standing there. A few step from me.
"Why are you still there?" He asked me.
I didn't answer him. Just took a step closer.
"Won't you satisfy me tonight?" He asked me again.
I took a step closer again. And then, I could see his shoes.
"Won't you see your guest?"
And there was a silence for a while...I decided to face him. I took a deep breath and brought my head slowly.
I could feel my eyes widened. My heart pounded faster. My mouth hang up.
His black hair, his deep brown eyes, his handsome face, his tall figure...
"M...Min...Minho-hyung...?"
He stood still. His hands folded on his chest. His eyes...his warm eyes became cold...stabbed my eyes. He curled his lips a little. Became a cold smirk.
"Hey, Taemin-ah. You're mine tonight, aren't you?"
His cold deep voice stabbed my heart. Minho-hyung? My guest? I meant...he paid for...me...?
"H...hyung..." I stuttered as he walked closer. I stepped back until my back hit the wall, he still stepped closer.
When he reached me he leaned closer. His face was really close from mine. Our nose touched. I could feel his minty warm breath brushed my lips. He was scared me...
His eyes on mine, he titled his head slowly and kiss my lips softly.
My eyes still opened, I didn't give any response to him. Just too shocked to think.
"You said that you love your job, right?" He whispered between the kiss.
And the kiss became deeper, hungrily, in sudden and he pushed me on the bed. Not breaking the kiss. I shut my eyes strongly.
No, that boy wasn't my beloved hyung! He wasn't Minho-hyung! Minho-hyung had a pair of warm eyes! Not the cold one! I let him do whatever he wanted. I was to shocked to realize what was happening.
I still shut my eyes, but suddenly he stopped kissing me. And I felt a hot liquid fell on my cheeks.
I opened my eyes slowly and I found he was crying above my face. Crying...? His tears fell down over my face.
"H-hyung..." I stuttered.
And he shut his eyes as strong as he could to hold his emotions.
"Please...please, Taemin-ah...don't hurt me more than this...please...I know something wrong...Please...let me know...let me help you..." He said almost whispered.
"H-hyung...I..."
"Please...I can't hold it anymore...it's too pain...it's killing me inside, Taemin-ah...please..."
NO! I couldn't see him crying like that...no...
"H-hyung...hyung...stop crying..."
He cried until he couldn't breathe properly. I cupped his cheeks with my hands, wiped his tears with my thumbs. I couldn't hold my own tears...yes, hyung, it was too pain...
I brought my hands to his back and hugged him tight.
"H-hyung...please stop crying..." I whispered on his ear.
"I can't, I really can't, Taemin-ah..."
I closed my eyes, felt his shivering body, and whispered to him, "I'll...I'll tell you, hyung...I'll tell you, everything about my life and Kibum-hyung's life...I'll tell you..."
MINHO'S POV
I felt he hugged me tight.
"H-hyung...please stop crying..." He whispered on my ear.
"I can't, I really can't, Taemin-ah..." I said to him.
Silence for a while and he suddenly said to me, "I'll...I'll tell you, hyung...I'll tell you, everything about my life and Kibum-hyung's life...I'll tell you..."
I pulled myself gently from his hand and looked into his teary eyes deeply before helped him woke up from the bed and brought his small figure toward the sofa.
I wiped my tears and smiled weakly, "I know, I know you have any reason for all of what happened..."
He looked deeply to my eyes and hugged me again, "But, promise me something, Hyung..."
"What's that Taemin-ah?"
"Don't ever feel disgust to me...don't hate me...Don't tell anyone, except Onew-hyung... Don't..."
I kissed his forehead before he could say anything again, "I won't...I promise, Taemin-ah..."
And then he told me everything, their parents were died, their parents best friends, Master, violence, their jobs, their life, their relation, everything... I clenched my jaw hard. That bastard! That fucking bastard! How dare he did all of that violent things to them?! I felt myself burned in anger.
"Taemin-ah..."
"Ne, Hyung..?"
"Where's your hyung now?"
"I think, he's in a room now, you know, guest..."
"We have to help him..."
ONEW'S POV
I was lying on my bed. I felt lifeless. I didn't have spirit when I went to school. I sighed. Kim Kibum, how could you do that to me? You left me without any single sweet memory beside our first kiss in the nurse office.
I just walked to the bathroom when I heard my cellphone was ringing.
"Hello?"
"Hyung, this is me!"
"Oh, Minho, what's the matter?"
"Meet me at the club!"
"What? Now? What club?"
"Yes! Now! Club where's Taemin and Kibum-hyung are working!"
I stiffened. That club?
"No, not at that club..."
"Yes, hyung! Hurry! We have to save Kibum-hyung and Taemin!"
And he hang up the phone. Save Kibum?! What?! What happened to him?!
I took my jacket and my car key and went out.
I drove my car like a crazy person. Kibum-ah! Hang on!
30 minutes later...
I arrived at the club, parked my car and ran in.
"Hyung!" I heard someone called me. It was Minho.
"What?! What happened to him?!"
"Just calm down, Hyung!"
"Just...what?! Don't fool around, Minho-ah! Where's he?!"
"Hyung! Calm down! Follow me!"
I hesitated for a while but followed him to the upstairs to a room.
"Taemin?" I heard my voice asked a small boy on the sofa.
"Hyung..."
"Onew-hyung, you have to hear Taemin." Minho said.
I didn't understand but I sat on the sofa.
"Hyung..." Taemin began, "There are a lot story to told. Why Kibum-hyung did that to you. Why I did that to Minho-hyung. What was wrong with our...life...I'll tell you everything..."
I didn't say anything but I heard him. I heard every single thing that Taemin said to me.
*
What?! What did he tell me?! What?! Master?! Fucking hell!
I stood up when he finished, "What?! What the...?! He...how dare...?!" I couldn't find any other word that could explain what I felt.
"Hyung! We have to find Kibum-hyung and bring him away!" Minho suggested.
I nodded, "Let's spread! Minho and Taemin look all over downstairs! I'll search him up here!"
They nodded and ran out.
I regretted everything. Kibum-ah, I should had protect you, but I didn't do that...I ran and kicked all door. But I still couldn't find him.
"DAMMIT! Where are you, Kibummie?!"
I looked around and found a door that closed. On the door there were sign, 'VVIP only'.
I didn't even care about that sign. I felt he was in there. I kicked the door harshly until it slammed and I heard a screamed.
"STOP IT!!!"
That was Kibum! I ran in and find a room again, kicked it again and, hell, I found him! Laid on the bed, fully naked, with fear on his face.
And I yelled loudly, "GET OFF FROM HIM, BASTARD!!!"
I kicked the man who was on his body and punched his face. I wrapped a blanket around Kibum's body. And brought him on bride style.
"H-hyung...?"
"Shut up, Kim Kibum!"
I saw the man tried to get up and yelled for help.
I ran away as fast as I could, Minho and Taemin were waiting me at the exit. We all ran to my car and escaped. Lucky, they couldn't catch us since we were too fast.
I reduced the speed when we were far enough from the club. I looked the mirror.
"Hyung..." Taemin said to him.
Kibum didn't say anything. Just sat there, stiffened, with blanket wrapped his body. His eyes still widened, the tears still rolled down from his eyes, his face still pictured traumatic.
We arrived at Minho's house. I brought him here since Minho was living alone. Taemin helped him to walk toward Minho's house. Minho opened the front door and all of us walked in. Taemin brought him into a room that Minho showed. I took a glass of water, calmed myself.
"Hyung...I think you have to talk to him..." Minho suggested.
I sighed and nodded and walked into the room. Taemin and Minho were looking at the door. Kim Kibum. My beloved. He sat at the corner of the wall on the bed, shivering.
I walked closer, "Kibum-ah..."
I just wanted to touch him but he yelled at me, "Don't touch me!"
"Wha...why...?" I asked him, softly.
"Don't you know?! I'm dirty! I'm very dirty! Don't touch me, Hyung!!"
"Kibummie! You're not dirty!"
"Yes, I am! YES, I AM!! Go away!! Stay away from me!!"
I clenched my jaw in pressure, I walked to the door, "Minho, don't get in! Make Taemin calm!" And I closed the door in front of their face.
I turned myself to Kibum again.
"Don't you hear me, Onew-hyung?!! Stay away! GO AWAY!!"
I hugged him tight, although he struggled in my hands, I didn't let him go, I wouldn't let him go again, never.
"No, Kibummie! You're never dirty! At least, not in my eyes!"
And he stopped struggling.
THIRD PERSON'S POV
Onew pulled away slowly and cupped Kibum's cheeks.
"Yes, Kibummie, you're never dirty..."
He slid the blanket so the younger's chest exposed. He brushed his fingers all around the younger's bruises or hickeys, he couldn't find the different between them.
"You're never dirty, you're...beautiful, Kibummie..."
Kibum shivered when he touched him. He leaned closer to Kibum and kissed him.
The kiss was going slowly, softly. He could feel Kibum melted on the kiss. He licked Kibum's bottom lip for permission and Kibum gave the way. No battled for dominance, no rough, no hunger, no lust. There was something different. Something comfortable. Something warm. It was...love...
"Don't worry, Kibummie..." Onew whispered, between the kiss, "I'll never hurt you...never..."
And he left Kibum's lips and kissed every single bruise on Kibum's body. Kibum bit his bottom lip, he embarrassed. Onew knew the younger felt uncomfortable since he was the one who fully naked. So he unzipped his jacket and put off his t-shirt. Kibum cheeks more blushed when the older's chest exposed and he covered his face. He didn't know why he felt so embarrassed, whereas he had seen many naked bodies of his guests before. Onew smiled warmly, saw Kibum like that. He kissed Kibum's hands, which still covered his face. He pulled his jeans and boxer. Onew took the blanket and covered it on their bodies. He held Kibum's hand and moved it slowly so he could see Kibum's blushed face. He pecked Kibum's lips...
"Open your eyes, Kibummie..."
And Kibum did it slowly...
And few minutes later, the room was filled with many soft moans...
No lust, just love...
Characters: Key, Onew, Minho, Taemin, Jonghyun and some other characters
Rating: PG-13 - NC-17
Genre: Angst, AU, Romance, Smut (for certain chapters)
Status: On Going
Summary:
Tried living their suffering lives...
Tried to escape all obstacles...
Tried to get their happiness...
They needed a long, long way...
Those were their lives...
TAEMIN'S POV
I felt my hand cold. I was so nervous and scared at the same time. How if he would hurt me? My heart pounded faster and faster when I got closer and closer to the room. My master open the door. I bowed my head. I didn't have any daring to face my guest. I still bowed.
"Ah, you've been here. This is Taemin, the boy who you wanted to." He pushed me a little and closed the door behind me. I still didn't brought up my head.
Silence...he didn't say anything...I just felt he was standing there. A few step from me.
"Why are you still there?" He asked me.
I didn't answer him. Just took a step closer.
"Won't you satisfy me tonight?" He asked me again.
I took a step closer again. And then, I could see his shoes.
"Won't you see your guest?"
And there was a silence for a while...I decided to face him. I took a deep breath and brought my head slowly.
I could feel my eyes widened. My heart pounded faster. My mouth hang up.
His black hair, his deep brown eyes, his handsome face, his tall figure...
"M...Min...Minho-hyung...?"
He stood still. His hands folded on his chest. His eyes...his warm eyes became cold...stabbed my eyes. He curled his lips a little. Became a cold smirk.
"Hey, Taemin-ah. You're mine tonight, aren't you?"
His cold deep voice stabbed my heart. Minho-hyung? My guest? I meant...he paid for...me...?
"H...hyung..." I stuttered as he walked closer. I stepped back until my back hit the wall, he still stepped closer.
When he reached me he leaned closer. His face was really close from mine. Our nose touched. I could feel his minty warm breath brushed my lips. He was scared me...
His eyes on mine, he titled his head slowly and kiss my lips softly.
My eyes still opened, I didn't give any response to him. Just too shocked to think.
"You said that you love your job, right?" He whispered between the kiss.
And the kiss became deeper, hungrily, in sudden and he pushed me on the bed. Not breaking the kiss. I shut my eyes strongly.
No, that boy wasn't my beloved hyung! He wasn't Minho-hyung! Minho-hyung had a pair of warm eyes! Not the cold one! I let him do whatever he wanted. I was to shocked to realize what was happening.
I still shut my eyes, but suddenly he stopped kissing me. And I felt a hot liquid fell on my cheeks.
I opened my eyes slowly and I found he was crying above my face. Crying...? His tears fell down over my face.
"H-hyung..." I stuttered.
And he shut his eyes as strong as he could to hold his emotions.
"Please...please, Taemin-ah...don't hurt me more than this...please...I know something wrong...Please...let me know...let me help you..." He said almost whispered.
"H-hyung...I..."
"Please...I can't hold it anymore...it's too pain...it's killing me inside, Taemin-ah...please..."
NO! I couldn't see him crying like that...no...
"H-hyung...hyung...stop crying..."
He cried until he couldn't breathe properly. I cupped his cheeks with my hands, wiped his tears with my thumbs. I couldn't hold my own tears...yes, hyung, it was too pain...
I brought my hands to his back and hugged him tight.
"H-hyung...please stop crying..." I whispered on his ear.
"I can't, I really can't, Taemin-ah..."
I closed my eyes, felt his shivering body, and whispered to him, "I'll...I'll tell you, hyung...I'll tell you, everything about my life and Kibum-hyung's life...I'll tell you..."
MINHO'S POV
I felt he hugged me tight.
"H-hyung...please stop crying..." He whispered on my ear.
"I can't, I really can't, Taemin-ah..." I said to him.
Silence for a while and he suddenly said to me, "I'll...I'll tell you, hyung...I'll tell you, everything about my life and Kibum-hyung's life...I'll tell you..."
I pulled myself gently from his hand and looked into his teary eyes deeply before helped him woke up from the bed and brought his small figure toward the sofa.
I wiped my tears and smiled weakly, "I know, I know you have any reason for all of what happened..."
He looked deeply to my eyes and hugged me again, "But, promise me something, Hyung..."
"What's that Taemin-ah?"
"Don't ever feel disgust to me...don't hate me...Don't tell anyone, except Onew-hyung... Don't..."
I kissed his forehead before he could say anything again, "I won't...I promise, Taemin-ah..."
And then he told me everything, their parents were died, their parents best friends, Master, violence, their jobs, their life, their relation, everything... I clenched my jaw hard. That bastard! That fucking bastard! How dare he did all of that violent things to them?! I felt myself burned in anger.
"Taemin-ah..."
"Ne, Hyung..?"
"Where's your hyung now?"
"I think, he's in a room now, you know, guest..."
"We have to help him..."
ONEW'S POV
I was lying on my bed. I felt lifeless. I didn't have spirit when I went to school. I sighed. Kim Kibum, how could you do that to me? You left me without any single sweet memory beside our first kiss in the nurse office.
I just walked to the bathroom when I heard my cellphone was ringing.
"Hello?"
"Hyung, this is me!"
"Oh, Minho, what's the matter?"
"Meet me at the club!"
"What? Now? What club?"
"Yes! Now! Club where's Taemin and Kibum-hyung are working!"
I stiffened. That club?
"No, not at that club..."
"Yes, hyung! Hurry! We have to save Kibum-hyung and Taemin!"
And he hang up the phone. Save Kibum?! What?! What happened to him?!
I took my jacket and my car key and went out.
I drove my car like a crazy person. Kibum-ah! Hang on!
30 minutes later...
I arrived at the club, parked my car and ran in.
"Hyung!" I heard someone called me. It was Minho.
"What?! What happened to him?!"
"Just calm down, Hyung!"
"Just...what?! Don't fool around, Minho-ah! Where's he?!"
"Hyung! Calm down! Follow me!"
I hesitated for a while but followed him to the upstairs to a room.
"Taemin?" I heard my voice asked a small boy on the sofa.
"Hyung..."
"Onew-hyung, you have to hear Taemin." Minho said.
I didn't understand but I sat on the sofa.
"Hyung..." Taemin began, "There are a lot story to told. Why Kibum-hyung did that to you. Why I did that to Minho-hyung. What was wrong with our...life...I'll tell you everything..."
I didn't say anything but I heard him. I heard every single thing that Taemin said to me.
*
What?! What did he tell me?! What?! Master?! Fucking hell!
I stood up when he finished, "What?! What the...?! He...how dare...?!" I couldn't find any other word that could explain what I felt.
"Hyung! We have to find Kibum-hyung and bring him away!" Minho suggested.
I nodded, "Let's spread! Minho and Taemin look all over downstairs! I'll search him up here!"
They nodded and ran out.
I regretted everything. Kibum-ah, I should had protect you, but I didn't do that...I ran and kicked all door. But I still couldn't find him.
"DAMMIT! Where are you, Kibummie?!"
I looked around and found a door that closed. On the door there were sign, 'VVIP only'.
I didn't even care about that sign. I felt he was in there. I kicked the door harshly until it slammed and I heard a screamed.
"STOP IT!!!"
That was Kibum! I ran in and find a room again, kicked it again and, hell, I found him! Laid on the bed, fully naked, with fear on his face.
And I yelled loudly, "GET OFF FROM HIM, BASTARD!!!"
I kicked the man who was on his body and punched his face. I wrapped a blanket around Kibum's body. And brought him on bride style.
"H-hyung...?"
"Shut up, Kim Kibum!"
I saw the man tried to get up and yelled for help.
I ran away as fast as I could, Minho and Taemin were waiting me at the exit. We all ran to my car and escaped. Lucky, they couldn't catch us since we were too fast.
I reduced the speed when we were far enough from the club. I looked the mirror.
"Hyung..." Taemin said to him.
Kibum didn't say anything. Just sat there, stiffened, with blanket wrapped his body. His eyes still widened, the tears still rolled down from his eyes, his face still pictured traumatic.
We arrived at Minho's house. I brought him here since Minho was living alone. Taemin helped him to walk toward Minho's house. Minho opened the front door and all of us walked in. Taemin brought him into a room that Minho showed. I took a glass of water, calmed myself.
"Hyung...I think you have to talk to him..." Minho suggested.
I sighed and nodded and walked into the room. Taemin and Minho were looking at the door. Kim Kibum. My beloved. He sat at the corner of the wall on the bed, shivering.
I walked closer, "Kibum-ah..."
I just wanted to touch him but he yelled at me, "Don't touch me!"
"Wha...why...?" I asked him, softly.
"Don't you know?! I'm dirty! I'm very dirty! Don't touch me, Hyung!!"
"Kibummie! You're not dirty!"
"Yes, I am! YES, I AM!! Go away!! Stay away from me!!"
I clenched my jaw in pressure, I walked to the door, "Minho, don't get in! Make Taemin calm!" And I closed the door in front of their face.
I turned myself to Kibum again.
"Don't you hear me, Onew-hyung?!! Stay away! GO AWAY!!"
I hugged him tight, although he struggled in my hands, I didn't let him go, I wouldn't let him go again, never.
"No, Kibummie! You're never dirty! At least, not in my eyes!"
And he stopped struggling.
THIRD PERSON'S POV
Onew pulled away slowly and cupped Kibum's cheeks.
"Yes, Kibummie, you're never dirty..."
He slid the blanket so the younger's chest exposed. He brushed his fingers all around the younger's bruises or hickeys, he couldn't find the different between them.
"You're never dirty, you're...beautiful, Kibummie..."
Kibum shivered when he touched him. He leaned closer to Kibum and kissed him.
The kiss was going slowly, softly. He could feel Kibum melted on the kiss. He licked Kibum's bottom lip for permission and Kibum gave the way. No battled for dominance, no rough, no hunger, no lust. There was something different. Something comfortable. Something warm. It was...love...
"Don't worry, Kibummie..." Onew whispered, between the kiss, "I'll never hurt you...never..."
And he left Kibum's lips and kissed every single bruise on Kibum's body. Kibum bit his bottom lip, he embarrassed. Onew knew the younger felt uncomfortable since he was the one who fully naked. So he unzipped his jacket and put off his t-shirt. Kibum cheeks more blushed when the older's chest exposed and he covered his face. He didn't know why he felt so embarrassed, whereas he had seen many naked bodies of his guests before. Onew smiled warmly, saw Kibum like that. He kissed Kibum's hands, which still covered his face. He pulled his jeans and boxer. Onew took the blanket and covered it on their bodies. He held Kibum's hand and moved it slowly so he could see Kibum's blushed face. He pecked Kibum's lips...
"Open your eyes, Kibummie..."
And Kibum did it slowly...
And few minutes later, the room was filled with many soft moans...
No lust, just love...