Our Lives Weren't Our Lives Anymore (4/19)
Title: Our Lives Weren't Our Lives Anymore
Characters: Key, Onew, Minho, Taemin, Jonghyun and some other characters
Rating: PG-13 - NC-17
Genre: Angst, AU, Romance, Smut (for certain chapters)
Status: On Going
Summary:
Tried living their suffering lives...
Tried to escape all obstacles...
Tried to get their happiness...
They needed a long, long way...
Those were their lives...
MINHO'S POV
I looked Onew-hyung walked down slowly. His eyes were blank. His face unreadable. With Taemin still in my hand, I walked closer to him.
"Hyung...what's wrong?" I asked him.
Suddenly, he laughed. A painful laugh, "You know what, he said that he loves his job..."
"What...?"
His face was without expression, "Let's go home, Minho-ah..."
"You heard that, Minho-hyung? We love our job, so let me go!" I heard Taemin yelled in sudden, he struggled, he really wanted me to let him go.
I freed his hand and he ran away. I still couldn't believe. What was going on?
"You heard that, go home, Minho-ah...I'm tired..." Onew-hyung said.
I nodded and followed him outside. I sighed. That was a nightmare. That couldn't happen. Taemin-ah, did you have any reason for all of these? Tell me, Taemin-ah...
Two days later...
Monday, we, Onew-hyung and I would meet them, Kim Kibum and Lee Taemin. I sighed heavily. It was painful when I heard he said that he loved his job in that club. Onew-hyung might be hurted too. I prepared for school, ate my breakfast and went.
At the gate, Onew-hyung was waiting for me.
"Hi, Hyung..."I said weakly.
He just nodded and we walked into the school in silence. I was sure that he still couldn't believe too. I didn't know what was happened up there, in the club, but I didn't want to ask him about it. Whatever it was, it hurted my hyung. His face was looked sad. Hyung, I felt it too.
He stopped, for a while, when he looked Kibum-hyung passed him, I was almost sure his face was sad too. Same with Onew-hyung. And I could saw Onew-hyung made his step faster and he grabbed Kibum-hyung's hand.
KEY'S POV
I was shocked when he dragged me along the corridor.
"Hyung! Let me go!"
He still dragged me, although I yelled at him to let me go. Until we arrived at the back of our school and pushed me on the wall.
"What the hell is wrong with you, Kibum-ah?!" He yelled at me.
I still didn't answered him.
"Talk to me! What the fuck is wrong with you, Kim Kibum?!!"
I saw his tears were hanging on his eyes. No, no, please, Hyung! Don't cry...
I held my tears and shook my head, "That's my question, what the hell is wrong with you, Hyung? Let me go!" I said to him, coldly. I was hurt, very hurt, when I saw his face full of pain. But...I had to make me hate me. He couldn't love me. If he loved me, he would hurt his self more. I couldn't see him like that.
He freed my shoulder and fell down with his hand covered his face. And he screamed.
"AAAAAH!!!!!!"
No, no, Kim Kibum, you couldn't cry!
He stood up in sudden, his tears rolled down his cheeks, "Alright...alright Kibum-ah, do you want me to stay away from you?! Do you want me not to love you anymore, huh?! You love your job in that club, don't you?! Fine, then, Kim Kibum! Dammit! I'll never disturb you anymore, as your wish!!" And he punched the wall beside my face once before he went away.
I couldn't hold my tears anymore. Yes, Hyung! You had to hate me! You did it, Hyung...and I cried loudly, didn't even care if someone would hear me...
TAEMIN'S POV
I saw Onew-hyung on my seat. I walked toward him, "H-hyung...why are you on my seat?"I asked him.
He looked at me and answered me coldly, "You'll sit on my old chair from now on. And don't ever ask what's the reason. If you want to know, you can ask HIM." I felt he pressed the 'him' word. I knew who was 'him'. And I walked to my new chair.
Kibum-hyung hadn't come in yet. Minho-hyung too. I looked him in the corridor, but when he looked me he just passed me, like...I was a stranger and he didn't know me. Hurt, I knew. But, I couldn't do anything. I understood, he might be hate me.
Kibum-hyung and Onew-hyung. Minho-hyung and me were being hurt each other. Shit! All of this were caused of that devil!
The bell rang, I could see Minho-hyung came in. He just sat on his chair and talked to Onew-hyung. Like there was nothing changed. Like I've never sat beside him before. I grabbed my clothes tip. I wouldn't cry. Yes, I wouldn't!
Where was Kibum-hyung? Maybe, something happened to him? Something terrible? I felt nausea. But, I took a deep breath. No, he would fine. Maybe, he just needed some times to his self. I sighed and tried to pay attention to the lesson. But, I thought I couldn't...
MINHO'S POV
I saw Taemin in the corridor before. But, I didn't greet him. I even acted like I didn't know him, like he was a stranger. I could see his hurt face from the corner of my eyes when I passed him. I wanted hug him so badly. But, I couldn't. He wasn't my Taeminnie anymore. He was a stranger.
I could see him staring at me when I came into the class. I was a little bit surprised when I saw Onew-hyung sat down on Taemin's chair. But, I acted like nothing was changed. Like Onew-hyung naturally sat on Taemin's spot.
It was painful.
I didn't see Kibum-hyung. I asked the oldest, "Hyung, where's Kibum-hyung?"
He stiffened for a while before answered me, "I left him at the back of school after I had talked to him. And I knew the conclusion now. I'll never get near him anymore. Or talked to him. Even...I'll try to not let myself love him anymore. Please don't ever ask me anything about him to me anymore, Minho-ah."
My eyes widened but I didn't say anything. I saw his hand bruised. I felt something weird here. I didn't know what did they talk about, but whatever it was, I had to find something. I had to find the fact. I knew, Kibum-hyung and Taemin-ah had a secret. The secret that they couldn't reveal it.
I would find it!
ONEW'S POV
It was hurt to let you go, Kibummie. But...that was your wish. I would never disturb you anymore, although I knew I couldn't ever forget you. Saranghaeyo, Kim Kibum...
I saw my hand, my bruised hand, I could remember his expression when I punched the wall beside his face. I made him scared. I felt guilty to do that. But...he was the one who made me do that. God, what should I do?
"Hyung..."
I blinked and looked to Minho, "Ne, Minho-ah?"
"I'll find something. I'll reveal the fact."
"What do you mean, Minho-ah?"
He didn't say anything.
TAEMIN'S POV
We went home as usual. Kibum-hyung went to the upstair after had given a bow to that bastard. But, he called me and commanded Kibum-hyung to go first.
I had a bad feeling. My heart pounded hard.
"Yes, Master..." I said weakly.
"You have a different job at two night from now, Taeminnie. So just prepare yourself. Don't go to work until that night come."
My eyes widened, what? What did he say?
"Ma..."
But, he cut off my sentence, "A boy paid me. You have to serve him. All night long!"
"But master..."
"No, buts Taeminnie! Go!"
Suddenly, I heard someone yelled, "NO!! NO! No, Master! Please! Please, don't let Taemin do that! Just me! Please!"
Kibum-hyung knelt on the floor, in front of him.
That devil just laughed, "Whatever you'll do, you can't change that, Kibummie. That boy just want Taeminnie. I think he have targeted Taeminnie before."
Then he kicked Kibum-hyung until his back slammed on the wall. I could hear he screamed in pain. And that fucking devil went out with a big grin on his face. What was it?! He wanted me to be a...whore...too.
"No...no...it can't be...no...my Taeminnie..." Kibum-hyung whispered desperately.
"Hyung...it's okay...I'll do it..."
"NO! No, Taemin-ah! You can't be like...me..."
I shook my head. "I'll do it. Don't be silly, Hyung. We can't change it. This is our fate..."
Fate...? I felt weird when I said that word.
Next day...
I went to school with, Kibum-hyung. The school still rolled on like usual. Minho-hyung and Onew-hyung still didn't talk to us. I could see they avoided us. Everytime we met at the corridor, they would turn their body. Or if we met in the toilet, they would stop their step and went out again.
Rest time came. Kibum-hyung had to finish his task so he wouldn't eat his lunch with me. So, I went to the roof and eat my lunch alone.
When I half-finished my lunch, I heard someone opened the door. That was...Minho-hyung...
He shocked when he look me. He turned around and stepped away.
"Hyung!"
His body stiffened as I called him.
"Hyung...I'm sorry...for everything..."
He stood still for a while before stepped away again. I looked his figure disappeared.
"Hyung...if you know what will happen tomorrow night, will you feel disgust to me?" I whispered. Yeah, he would...
I felt my tears rolled down, "No, Taemin! Don't cry!" I wiped my tears. That was my decision. I wouldn't regret it. My life wasn't mine anymore, though.
I continued my lunch, and I felt it was...bitter.
And the night came...Kibum-hyung couldn't hold his tears, he hugged me tight.
"I'm sorry, Taemin-ah...I couldn't protect you..."
I hugged him back and said, "No, Hyung...this is my decision...I won't run away..."
"Taeminnie!" I heard my boss called me.
"Taemin-ah, run! Run, Taemin-ah!" Kibum-hyung whispered.
I shook my head, "No, hyung, I won't. I gotta go..." I forced my self to smile.
I could see he stared at me blankly.
I followed my master. I wouldn't run away. I would face it. I gulped. He brought me upstairs, to my...guest...
Be strong, Lee Taemin! I said to myself...
Characters: Key, Onew, Minho, Taemin, Jonghyun and some other characters
Rating: PG-13 - NC-17
Genre: Angst, AU, Romance, Smut (for certain chapters)
Status: On Going
Summary:
Tried living their suffering lives...
Tried to escape all obstacles...
Tried to get their happiness...
They needed a long, long way...
Those were their lives...
MINHO'S POV
I looked Onew-hyung walked down slowly. His eyes were blank. His face unreadable. With Taemin still in my hand, I walked closer to him.
"Hyung...what's wrong?" I asked him.
Suddenly, he laughed. A painful laugh, "You know what, he said that he loves his job..."
"What...?"
His face was without expression, "Let's go home, Minho-ah..."
"You heard that, Minho-hyung? We love our job, so let me go!" I heard Taemin yelled in sudden, he struggled, he really wanted me to let him go.
I freed his hand and he ran away. I still couldn't believe. What was going on?
"You heard that, go home, Minho-ah...I'm tired..." Onew-hyung said.
I nodded and followed him outside. I sighed. That was a nightmare. That couldn't happen. Taemin-ah, did you have any reason for all of these? Tell me, Taemin-ah...
Two days later...
Monday, we, Onew-hyung and I would meet them, Kim Kibum and Lee Taemin. I sighed heavily. It was painful when I heard he said that he loved his job in that club. Onew-hyung might be hurted too. I prepared for school, ate my breakfast and went.
At the gate, Onew-hyung was waiting for me.
"Hi, Hyung..."I said weakly.
He just nodded and we walked into the school in silence. I was sure that he still couldn't believe too. I didn't know what was happened up there, in the club, but I didn't want to ask him about it. Whatever it was, it hurted my hyung. His face was looked sad. Hyung, I felt it too.
He stopped, for a while, when he looked Kibum-hyung passed him, I was almost sure his face was sad too. Same with Onew-hyung. And I could saw Onew-hyung made his step faster and he grabbed Kibum-hyung's hand.
KEY'S POV
I was shocked when he dragged me along the corridor.
"Hyung! Let me go!"
He still dragged me, although I yelled at him to let me go. Until we arrived at the back of our school and pushed me on the wall.
"What the hell is wrong with you, Kibum-ah?!" He yelled at me.
I still didn't answered him.
"Talk to me! What the fuck is wrong with you, Kim Kibum?!!"
I saw his tears were hanging on his eyes. No, no, please, Hyung! Don't cry...
I held my tears and shook my head, "That's my question, what the hell is wrong with you, Hyung? Let me go!" I said to him, coldly. I was hurt, very hurt, when I saw his face full of pain. But...I had to make me hate me. He couldn't love me. If he loved me, he would hurt his self more. I couldn't see him like that.
He freed my shoulder and fell down with his hand covered his face. And he screamed.
"AAAAAH!!!!!!"
No, no, Kim Kibum, you couldn't cry!
He stood up in sudden, his tears rolled down his cheeks, "Alright...alright Kibum-ah, do you want me to stay away from you?! Do you want me not to love you anymore, huh?! You love your job in that club, don't you?! Fine, then, Kim Kibum! Dammit! I'll never disturb you anymore, as your wish!!" And he punched the wall beside my face once before he went away.
I couldn't hold my tears anymore. Yes, Hyung! You had to hate me! You did it, Hyung...and I cried loudly, didn't even care if someone would hear me...
TAEMIN'S POV
I saw Onew-hyung on my seat. I walked toward him, "H-hyung...why are you on my seat?"I asked him.
He looked at me and answered me coldly, "You'll sit on my old chair from now on. And don't ever ask what's the reason. If you want to know, you can ask HIM." I felt he pressed the 'him' word. I knew who was 'him'. And I walked to my new chair.
Kibum-hyung hadn't come in yet. Minho-hyung too. I looked him in the corridor, but when he looked me he just passed me, like...I was a stranger and he didn't know me. Hurt, I knew. But, I couldn't do anything. I understood, he might be hate me.
Kibum-hyung and Onew-hyung. Minho-hyung and me were being hurt each other. Shit! All of this were caused of that devil!
The bell rang, I could see Minho-hyung came in. He just sat on his chair and talked to Onew-hyung. Like there was nothing changed. Like I've never sat beside him before. I grabbed my clothes tip. I wouldn't cry. Yes, I wouldn't!
Where was Kibum-hyung? Maybe, something happened to him? Something terrible? I felt nausea. But, I took a deep breath. No, he would fine. Maybe, he just needed some times to his self. I sighed and tried to pay attention to the lesson. But, I thought I couldn't...
MINHO'S POV
I saw Taemin in the corridor before. But, I didn't greet him. I even acted like I didn't know him, like he was a stranger. I could see his hurt face from the corner of my eyes when I passed him. I wanted hug him so badly. But, I couldn't. He wasn't my Taeminnie anymore. He was a stranger.
I could see him staring at me when I came into the class. I was a little bit surprised when I saw Onew-hyung sat down on Taemin's chair. But, I acted like nothing was changed. Like Onew-hyung naturally sat on Taemin's spot.
It was painful.
I didn't see Kibum-hyung. I asked the oldest, "Hyung, where's Kibum-hyung?"
He stiffened for a while before answered me, "I left him at the back of school after I had talked to him. And I knew the conclusion now. I'll never get near him anymore. Or talked to him. Even...I'll try to not let myself love him anymore. Please don't ever ask me anything about him to me anymore, Minho-ah."
My eyes widened but I didn't say anything. I saw his hand bruised. I felt something weird here. I didn't know what did they talk about, but whatever it was, I had to find something. I had to find the fact. I knew, Kibum-hyung and Taemin-ah had a secret. The secret that they couldn't reveal it.
I would find it!
ONEW'S POV
It was hurt to let you go, Kibummie. But...that was your wish. I would never disturb you anymore, although I knew I couldn't ever forget you. Saranghaeyo, Kim Kibum...
I saw my hand, my bruised hand, I could remember his expression when I punched the wall beside his face. I made him scared. I felt guilty to do that. But...he was the one who made me do that. God, what should I do?
"Hyung..."
I blinked and looked to Minho, "Ne, Minho-ah?"
"I'll find something. I'll reveal the fact."
"What do you mean, Minho-ah?"
He didn't say anything.
TAEMIN'S POV
We went home as usual. Kibum-hyung went to the upstair after had given a bow to that bastard. But, he called me and commanded Kibum-hyung to go first.
I had a bad feeling. My heart pounded hard.
"Yes, Master..." I said weakly.
"You have a different job at two night from now, Taeminnie. So just prepare yourself. Don't go to work until that night come."
My eyes widened, what? What did he say?
"Ma..."
But, he cut off my sentence, "A boy paid me. You have to serve him. All night long!"
"But master..."
"No, buts Taeminnie! Go!"
Suddenly, I heard someone yelled, "NO!! NO! No, Master! Please! Please, don't let Taemin do that! Just me! Please!"
Kibum-hyung knelt on the floor, in front of him.
That devil just laughed, "Whatever you'll do, you can't change that, Kibummie. That boy just want Taeminnie. I think he have targeted Taeminnie before."
Then he kicked Kibum-hyung until his back slammed on the wall. I could hear he screamed in pain. And that fucking devil went out with a big grin on his face. What was it?! He wanted me to be a...whore...too.
"No...no...it can't be...no...my Taeminnie..." Kibum-hyung whispered desperately.
"Hyung...it's okay...I'll do it..."
"NO! No, Taemin-ah! You can't be like...me..."
I shook my head. "I'll do it. Don't be silly, Hyung. We can't change it. This is our fate..."
Fate...? I felt weird when I said that word.
Next day...
I went to school with, Kibum-hyung. The school still rolled on like usual. Minho-hyung and Onew-hyung still didn't talk to us. I could see they avoided us. Everytime we met at the corridor, they would turn their body. Or if we met in the toilet, they would stop their step and went out again.
Rest time came. Kibum-hyung had to finish his task so he wouldn't eat his lunch with me. So, I went to the roof and eat my lunch alone.
When I half-finished my lunch, I heard someone opened the door. That was...Minho-hyung...
He shocked when he look me. He turned around and stepped away.
"Hyung!"
His body stiffened as I called him.
"Hyung...I'm sorry...for everything..."
He stood still for a while before stepped away again. I looked his figure disappeared.
"Hyung...if you know what will happen tomorrow night, will you feel disgust to me?" I whispered. Yeah, he would...
I felt my tears rolled down, "No, Taemin! Don't cry!" I wiped my tears. That was my decision. I wouldn't regret it. My life wasn't mine anymore, though.
I continued my lunch, and I felt it was...bitter.
And the night came...Kibum-hyung couldn't hold his tears, he hugged me tight.
"I'm sorry, Taemin-ah...I couldn't protect you..."
I hugged him back and said, "No, Hyung...this is my decision...I won't run away..."
"Taeminnie!" I heard my boss called me.
"Taemin-ah, run! Run, Taemin-ah!" Kibum-hyung whispered.
I shook my head, "No, hyung, I won't. I gotta go..." I forced my self to smile.
I could see he stared at me blankly.
I followed my master. I wouldn't run away. I would face it. I gulped. He brought me upstairs, to my...guest...
Be strong, Lee Taemin! I said to myself...