The chickenshit speaks.
Well I do appologize for the recent enteractions with my current g/f. it's hard really to decide what to say. I did warn her that there would be consiquences if she did post something. I merely gave her the access to read posts from me while I was at work. As for adive from dy, I did take your advice and left you all alone. For it seems that when drama does happen you all flock to it like pigs during feeding time. This definately does make me rethink my visiting CA, espcially since I told 2 people, and part of the reason I left is everyone seems to " know a rumor " I was going to be going to beltaine. The annivarsary of everything it seemed. But it's not worth it really. I am sorry that I don't know how to make ammends. Im not used to being in so much shit before. Not used to people being mad at me, or making the big mistake that I made. What will make you all happy to know is that my world here is worse than CA. Soon I will be moving out of Daves house and either join the military or just live alone, get my own place. I chose one hole over another and I didn't know how much the other hole was. But with both holes there is a light at the end. I will leave this up for a week and then close down this journal permamently. I again appologize for those that I have hurt over the years that I have known you, and the recent posts from my current g/f. I assure you I would never go to your wedding dy, not without your permission. Even though I think of Lauren as a friend still and am glad you two are happy, I know it is also your wedding. And tell avi she doesn't have to worry about me coming to ca, not for a long time, espcially somewhere that I will run into her. For those that are willing to keep in touch say so in a reply otherwise it was nice to know you all, and I do miss the good times we had. I wish we would have parted on better terms. If I still had a computer where I lived, or wasn't sick this last week I would have stopped this sooner. So thank you all for one of life's most important lessons, and I hope the best for you all. Good Bye.