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Avi, I know that the last thing you want is to hear anythying from me. So if you want to ignore what I write go ahead. Yes, I know that my grammar sucks. Yes, I know that you are his ex. Yes, I even know that finding out that I existed must really have hurt to after the hell you had already been through. I'm sorry that Chris put you through that. If he had done that to me I would hate him too. So your perfectly justified. However, I also know that part of you will always love him too. I had no idea that he had been talking to you on the phone and telling you those things. That is something he failed to mention to me. as hard as it is to believe this, I understand were your coming from. The guy I loved married someone else 2 months after we had broken up, and had the nerve to send me an invite.
Now in defense of myself. I'm not a little girl, D. I understand more than you think. I appreciate you not wanting to feed Chris to the dogs, yet. I hope I don't make you change your mind. He's perfectly capable of that. He made that quite obvious. I'm not some Oklahoma hick. It may be different here, but I swear, we don't ride horses to school like our image suggests. But what I don't understand is why everyone there continues to read and post comments on HIS journal if you dislike him so much. When I made the original entry, it was to say hi to the few people Chris had told me were still talking to him. NOT to piss off the people who are not. I'm sorry that him trying to rebuild, continue, or find some shread of happiness here pisses you off. But speaking as the girl he is with, I'm glad that he found it and that he is not intentional suffocating himself in the pain of what happened.
Now in defense of myself. I'm not a little girl, D. I understand more than you think. I appreciate you not wanting to feed Chris to the dogs, yet. I hope I don't make you change your mind. He's perfectly capable of that. He made that quite obvious. I'm not some Oklahoma hick. It may be different here, but I swear, we don't ride horses to school like our image suggests. But what I don't understand is why everyone there continues to read and post comments on HIS journal if you dislike him so much. When I made the original entry, it was to say hi to the few people Chris had told me were still talking to him. NOT to piss off the people who are not. I'm sorry that him trying to rebuild, continue, or find some shread of happiness here pisses you off. But speaking as the girl he is with, I'm glad that he found it and that he is not intentional suffocating himself in the pain of what happened.