Coming out | JoshXFinn
Finn Sharkey sat in the dimly lit room, his mind swirling with confusion and guilt. He had always thought he understood himself, his desires, and his feelings. But as he watched his friend Josh Stevenson nervously fidgeting in front of him, Finn couldn't shake the feeling of unease that gnawed at his insides.
"Hey, Finn," Josh began, her voice hesitant but determined. "I need to tell you something. Something important."
Finn forced a smile, trying to mask the turmoil raging inside him. "Sure, Josh. What's on your mind?"
Josh took a deep breath, her hands trembling slightly as she gathered her thoughts. "I... I'm trans, Finn. I'm a guy."
The words hung heavy in the air, a deafening silence filling the room as Finn struggled to process what he had just heard. He had known Josh for years, had considered him a friend, a confidant, maybe even something more. But now, faced with this revelation, Finn felt like everything he thought he knew had been turned upside down.
"That's... that's ok, Josh," Finn stammered, his voice betraying the turmoil raging inside him. "I mean, I'm happy for you. Really, I am."
But even as he spoke the words, Finn couldn't shake the feeling of shame that washed over him. How could he still feel the same way about Josh knowing what he now knew? How could he reconcile his own desires with Josh's newfound identity?
Josh's brow furrowed with concern as he studied Finn's expression, sensing the turmoil raging beneath the surface. "Are you okay, Finn?" he asked, his voice filled with genuine concern.
Finn forced a smile, his heart heavy with guilt. "Yeah, I'm fine," he lied, his voice barely above a whisper. "I'm just... processing everything. It's a lot to take in, you know?"
Josh nodded understandingly, his eyes filled with empathy. "I get it, Finn. It's a lot to process. But I want you to know that nothing has to change between us. I'm still the same person I've always been, just a little more honest about who I am."
Finn's heart ached at Josh's words, his chest tight with emotion. He knew that Josh was right, that their friendship didn't have to change just because Josh had come out as trans. But try as he might, Finn couldn't shake the feeling of shame that lingered in the pit of his stomach.
As Josh reached out to grasp Finn's hand in a gesture of support, Finn felt a rush of conflicting emotions wash over him. He wanted to be happy for Josh, to support him in his journey of self-discovery. But deep down, he couldn't help but feel ashamed of his own desires, of the feelings he couldn't deny no matter how hard he tried.