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i have nothing to tell... but i have nothing to do... i'm so bored, and i feel sick of everything actually. i don't even know why i write my jorunal in english (and a really bad english =P)......................................................................................... So. Yes, my friends piss me off. And my dad is going to be here today =D . He goes out everytime for job, you know, i miss the old times. We have some troubles (the family) because of the money and no one but us know it. I felt so blind when i realized it... But my mom and my dad are so in love that it will help us to resist this. I love to talk, but when someone replies. This is pointless... sometimes. Everything is going to slow today and my wish to know someone new is growing. Even today i talked with a person form the boards that i didn't know... and it counts like someone new, right? I miss my friend Mayo, and i miss PMing Joe (hehe sorry i really miss it), i miss my fucking crush, i miss my cousin and i miss my friend. He was mad at me... or is mad at me and he blocked me. But it was because he IS stupid. Just because he found his ex girlfriend practically kissing with another guy (they live in different cities) he is just to jealous and sad and everything. He said he wanted revenge. And his stupid revenge is with the people which he doesn't like. It is stupid, because a revenge has to cause pain in another heart... And do you think that my enemies will care about me acting like an idiot? NO! they don't care, as you don't care about them. I know he is sad and everything, but we are real friends, well, i thought it, and i told him "Your revenge is really stupid." And he said "Do you know what? you are crazy, i never understand what you tell me" and when he says "crazy" it means that he is mad. I couln't reply because he appeared offline (we were on msn) and then i checked with the msn block checker and he was online. So he blocked me. But i don't care anyway. He will just come back. Just like my other friends. I never forced them to be with me, and sometimes i feel i'm too hard, btu when i'm pissed sometimes yell at them and everything. They scare, but still talk to me. If they get made it is their problem, really. And if they never come back, i can apologize and then we can be only mates.
My dad came, i hear the door. I want to hug him. *hugs dad*
And, my other friend Mayo and me never get pissed of us. Though he is a punk, i like him and i know he likes me. He is such a nice person and I met him because my cousin liked a guy who was Mayo's best friend. Then Andres (the guy) and my cousin Ana became boyfriends and Mayo and I are very good friends. And then I realized that my brother and my friend already knew each other! Because my friend's best friend Etienne is a friend of my brother too. Well, i'm hungy so i will go to eat something for dinner.