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[pumahmistress]

I still haven't smoked. Trust me, I've wanted to ...but I've refused to give into temptation

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[xxclovergrrlxx]

it's hard, but you can do it. it's been around 6 months or something for me and i'm still having dreams about smoking. uuughhhhasdfsd

[pumahmistress]

Hahaha, yeah! Thing is I know that I'm probably not really gonna enjoy the cigarette if I would steal one, it's the whole process of relaxing on the balcony with a smoke that I miss. And just holding it between my fingers. It's weird.

What do you miss most?

[xxclovergrrlxx]

the same. it's taking a moment for yourself, it's difficult to do that without an excuse. but really, it's the movies where the characters chain smoke that get me the most. dunno why.

[pumahmistress]

Aaaah yes. The chain smoking gets to me too ...makes me really wanna chain smoke :\

How did you quit?

[xxclovergrrlxx]

cold turkey. i'm hesitant to bring religion into it, but i do think it helps that i'm a buddhist. i meditate so much that it makes me slightly more aware of the processes of my mind, i think. when i would feel the urge particularly strong, i would focus on it. examining it, allowing it to pass naturally. i honestly found it incredibly interesting that a simple chemical dependency could control my behavior so strongly. it makes one wonder about the other unknown dependencies our brains must form and how this shapes our behavior. i think the most important thing is to remind yourself of this. it is only a chemical's reaction on your brain, and you are much bigger and stronger than this. it is not impossible to beat it. i tried to separate the urge to smoke from the concept i held of "me". in other words, that voice in the back of my head telling me to smoke wasn't me at all. i think when you realize this, it makes it easier to fight against it as well

[pumahmistress]

Ah yes, I've gone cold turkey as well. Ooooh, you're a buddhist? I had no idea, cool. Whatever helps you quit the habit is good ...plus it really sounds like you learned something about yourself in the process.

Never heard of the pills your gf used ...but I don't really "do" drugs. I react pretty badly to most drugs, or they don't work on me ..so I just stay away from them :P But that pill sounds pretty scary.