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I fucked up big time tonight. BIG time.
I'm not sure I'm going to be able to fix this.
Fuck.
It hurts so damn much, I didn't even realize that I cared this much about what he thinks. I fucked up so bad and now it's never gonna be the same. He says that he's feeling betrayed and is prob never gonna trust me again, do you KNOW how much that shit hurts?
It hurts enough that all I want is to throw up.
When did he become so important? We're not dating, we will never date, we don't even love each other and yet this hurts more than anything. When did I start needing him this much? Why the fuck didn't I know I mattered that much to him?
Why do I always end up fucking things up?
I lied and he knew it.
I'm not sure I'm going to be able to fix this.
Fuck.
It hurts so damn much, I didn't even realize that I cared this much about what he thinks. I fucked up so bad and now it's never gonna be the same. He says that he's feeling betrayed and is prob never gonna trust me again, do you KNOW how much that shit hurts?
It hurts enough that all I want is to throw up.
When did he become so important? We're not dating, we will never date, we don't even love each other and yet this hurts more than anything. When did I start needing him this much? Why the fuck didn't I know I mattered that much to him?
Why do I always end up fucking things up?
I lied and he knew it.