Ugh
Good news and bad news... the good news is I've dropped off a bunch of pounds and am currently fluctuating between 133 and 134 (which means I've passed my 135 school goal with days to spare!). I'm almost to my goal (130) the goal I set years and years ago but never thought I'd reach before Ana came along. I haven't felt so great in my entire life--I haven't even been this skinny since I was in elementary school lol!
Anyways, the bad news. My mom is sooo suspicious now and it doesn't help that my fingernails and toenails are always blue (or the fact that school starts in 2 days and I don't own a single outfit that fits even decently!!! GRRR!!!) so I've been having to eat. Unfortunately, me having to eat means Mia is back.... noooooo! After weeks and weeks of thinking I'd never see her again, she rears her ugly head! My mom's constantly threatening to take me to the doctor and says I "can't afford to lose any more weight." What the hell? I'm right in the frickin' center of healthy weight range for 5'7 (she still thinks I'm 137 I think), and most of the people in our family are underweight. So where does she get that idea?!
So when school starts I'm thinkin' I'm gonna take the money she gives me for lunch and use it for my own 'frivolous purposes' since it's impossible for a HS student to get a job in a freakin' college town! And damn it all, I have a birthday party to go to tonight. That means cake, on top of all the cake at our house from the last parties we've had. Mom's getting suspicious of Mia I think, too... I dunno, it's hard to tell with her. She's been griping cuz all her pants are too tight now lol. Mine are falling off. Oh, well... That's what she gets for suddenly deciding to buy cookies and make cake and brownies every day... Hopefully she'll stop.
Anyways, the bad news. My mom is sooo suspicious now and it doesn't help that my fingernails and toenails are always blue (or the fact that school starts in 2 days and I don't own a single outfit that fits even decently!!! GRRR!!!) so I've been having to eat. Unfortunately, me having to eat means Mia is back.... noooooo! After weeks and weeks of thinking I'd never see her again, she rears her ugly head! My mom's constantly threatening to take me to the doctor and says I "can't afford to lose any more weight." What the hell? I'm right in the frickin' center of healthy weight range for 5'7 (she still thinks I'm 137 I think), and most of the people in our family are underweight. So where does she get that idea?!
So when school starts I'm thinkin' I'm gonna take the money she gives me for lunch and use it for my own 'frivolous purposes' since it's impossible for a HS student to get a job in a freakin' college town! And damn it all, I have a birthday party to go to tonight. That means cake, on top of all the cake at our house from the last parties we've had. Mom's getting suspicious of Mia I think, too... I dunno, it's hard to tell with her. She's been griping cuz all her pants are too tight now lol. Mine are falling off. Oh, well... That's what she gets for suddenly deciding to buy cookies and make cake and brownies every day... Hopefully she'll stop.